New here:-(

Srendon1111

I started counting calories to lose weight. At first I just wanted to go back to pre-baby weight, but when I did I kept going. I'm 5'1 and weigh 96 lbs. I eat under 1400 calories a week, but since last month I binge on the weekends. I'm trying to stop this cycle. Last week I didn't deprive myself of any food I wanted and still kept under goal. But yesterday was the worst binge ever. I ate 6 pillsbury cookies. 2 big bakery cookies. Slice of apple pie. 4 fiber one bars. Pizza, beer and just junk. Yesterday came out to close to 5000 calories. And of course I feel horrible about it and I want to cry. I don't like this cycle. I wish I could go back to just eating what I wanted and being happy between 115-120 lbs, but I look in the mirror and I don't want to gain weight. I'm worried about this, but my husband sees no problem when I over eat. Then again I hide what I eat in front of him so he only sees so much. He wants me to gain weight, but I feel I don't want to. Sorry I just needed to vent.

Dennis4766

I eat under 1400 calories a week,

Assuming you meant 1400 a day?

My recommendation, I think you should start by seeing your Doctor and talking to them. You might be referred to eating disorder specialist or nutritionist. The first step is admitting you have a problem. In order to properly address an eating disorder, you will need to stop restricting, stop weighing and stop dieting. You will not stop binging as long as you are restricting. Your survival instincts will overwhelm you and you will binge.

Connect & reach out. But I really think you might want to start with your personal Doctor.

peanutbutter_runner

I would highly recommend seeing a therapist and nutritionist. I finally bit the bullet and started therapy, and I will be seeing a nutritionist as well. Sometimes we need to reach out to those resources for some extra help, and there's absolutely no shame in that.