Binge free day 1
RoseyBaby83
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Ok, so I figure even if no one reads this, it will be helpful to me to just talk about my relatively binge free day (one day at a time, right?). I have tracked all my food on MFP and have not, as of yet, face-planted into a carton of ice cream. I'm hoping that writing about it will help me stay strong for the rest of the day, since evening is my worst time of day.
I don't feel like I can talk about this stuff to anyone I know because, if you've never dealt with an eating disorder, you have no understanding of what it's like. Besides, do you ever feel like you've worn out the people you love talking about the same problems over and over again? I know I do. Always talking and never changing.
Well, I would like to change, and I think that writing here might help me.
I have been as small as a size 4 and as big as a size 16 (my current size)--and everything in between, and at just about every point in my life I have either thought I was fat, or was afraid that I might become fat again. I have spent most of my teenage and adult years starving or bingeing---never really having a truly normal relationship with food. Some people are just normal eaters--they eat what they want, not too much, mostly healthy, but an indulgence is no big deal. No drama. I want to be a normal eater. That's what I'm working towards. And if my skinny jeans ever fit again, that will be an added bonus.
I don't feel like I can talk about this stuff to anyone I know because, if you've never dealt with an eating disorder, you have no understanding of what it's like. Besides, do you ever feel like you've worn out the people you love talking about the same problems over and over again? I know I do. Always talking and never changing.
Well, I would like to change, and I think that writing here might help me.
I have been as small as a size 4 and as big as a size 16 (my current size)--and everything in between, and at just about every point in my life I have either thought I was fat, or was afraid that I might become fat again. I have spent most of my teenage and adult years starving or bingeing---never really having a truly normal relationship with food. Some people are just normal eaters--they eat what they want, not too much, mostly healthy, but an indulgence is no big deal. No drama. I want to be a normal eater. That's what I'm working towards. And if my skinny jeans ever fit again, that will be an added bonus.
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