need your help and support

zericaaaaa

I just broke up with my fiancé. We were together for a little over 2 and half years. He was my first real relationship, my first love. I have never really dealt with this kind of pain before and it has just been the cherry on top of my stress sundae. And that leads to literal sundaes. I haven't been able to sleep since he left and last night I stayed up til 7 am and binged pretty much the whole time. I do not want this to become a habit, but I know this will be hard to break. Night time is the hardest, its the only time of day that I'm alone with my thoughts and just constantly thinking about him. Sometimes I wonder if it would be easier if he left me for some other chick because that whole 'show him what he's missing!' thing would motivate me well. but instead we're both just sad and lonely and confused about what the future will hold. I know time will heal this pain, but in the meantime I'm not trying to ruin all the progress I've made, mentally and physically. So I'm reaching out to you guys to help me stay motivated. I want to post on here every day and remind myself of how far I've come so I won't lose sight of my goals. I've seen another thread like this before and I believe it is a common AA mantra, but I'd like to start another 'Just for today' thread in this group.

Just for today, I will remember that I am beautiful and worthy of love. I need to give myself that love first and foremost, no matter what happens with my relationship.

girlviernes

Oof! That's sounds so hard! I'm glad you are trying to be kind to yourself, you absolutely deserve to grieve and be sad AND take care of yourself!

zericaaaaa

thank you very very much. it has been a very hard week and I know its going to be hard for awhile but I'm trying my best to look on the bright side

Dennis4766

Will lift you up in prayer. Be good to yourself.

Pudding1980

I am sorry you're going through this. Please take care of yourself.

eddie8131

Thank you for reaching out, I'm sorry you are going through this. I have known this kind of deep seated pain before, as I'm sure many reading this have. But your last sentence nailed the key to moving on, very beautifully said. It's a great lesson to us, so I thank you.