Back on the wagon!
LisaBear1986
Posts: 85 Member
Hope you don't mind that I started my own topic. This has NOTHING to do with any accountability for anyone else...just getting some things off my chest as I feel I should be accountable for my disappearance!
My baby girl (she's 5) had strabismus surgery on both eyes a week ago today. I had been under significant stress, had a nasty attitude about every little thing for the last two weeks whether it be work, laundry, money, clothes, chores, etc, and totally jumped head first off the wagon. I was also PMSing like CRAZY which I can't even think of the last time it was that bad (or maybe I'm always that bad and just didn't know it?). Diamond (my baby girl) did great during the surgery, but she had such significant pain in her eyes for the rest of the day which made it a super long day for me and for her. Daddy was at her beck and call, as well as mine, and so was Grandma so she had lots of support. Anywho, she is doing great now and is getting ready to go back to school today. Well, now that I'm not under as much stress as I was before (let me tell you, the stress is still pretty high because it seems as though they have under-corrected her eyes and another surgery might be in her near future) but stepping onto the scale and realizing that I had gained 5-7lbs in the last two weeks stressed me out, too! It also made me feel very disappointed in myself. I undid some of the work I have done, but now that I'm not running around with my head cut off, I am able to focus on myself again, granted I will always worry about my kids and will always put them first. Although I have undid SOME of the work, I do recognize that I haven't undone ALL of the work. Back in February 2014, I was at 261lbs. Today, I am NOT 261lbs. I'm no where near it! So I am trying not to beat myself up too much.
Sooooo, in case any of you noticed I disappeared off the face of MFP, I'm back and ready to do this! I'm ready to work harder than I've been, and I'm more motivated now than I have been in awhile. I GOT THIS! And I'm glad to be back with this amazing group of wonderful, supportive, encouraging people. And in case you didn't notice, here's some fun facts about me. Ha Ha.
Thanks for listening, y'all! :flowerforyou:
My baby girl (she's 5) had strabismus surgery on both eyes a week ago today. I had been under significant stress, had a nasty attitude about every little thing for the last two weeks whether it be work, laundry, money, clothes, chores, etc, and totally jumped head first off the wagon. I was also PMSing like CRAZY which I can't even think of the last time it was that bad (or maybe I'm always that bad and just didn't know it?). Diamond (my baby girl) did great during the surgery, but she had such significant pain in her eyes for the rest of the day which made it a super long day for me and for her. Daddy was at her beck and call, as well as mine, and so was Grandma so she had lots of support. Anywho, she is doing great now and is getting ready to go back to school today. Well, now that I'm not under as much stress as I was before (let me tell you, the stress is still pretty high because it seems as though they have under-corrected her eyes and another surgery might be in her near future) but stepping onto the scale and realizing that I had gained 5-7lbs in the last two weeks stressed me out, too! It also made me feel very disappointed in myself. I undid some of the work I have done, but now that I'm not running around with my head cut off, I am able to focus on myself again, granted I will always worry about my kids and will always put them first. Although I have undid SOME of the work, I do recognize that I haven't undone ALL of the work. Back in February 2014, I was at 261lbs. Today, I am NOT 261lbs. I'm no where near it! So I am trying not to beat myself up too much.
Sooooo, in case any of you noticed I disappeared off the face of MFP, I'm back and ready to do this! I'm ready to work harder than I've been, and I'm more motivated now than I have been in awhile. I GOT THIS! And I'm glad to be back with this amazing group of wonderful, supportive, encouraging people. And in case you didn't notice, here's some fun facts about me. Ha Ha.
Thanks for listening, y'all! :flowerforyou:
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Hope you are doing well! But more so, I hope your little girl is doing well.0
