facing my fears and boosting my self-esteem
slocean
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Hi everyone!
I wanted to bring up a topic that I've struggled with for years...my self-esteem and how my body image has affected it. Next month I'm doing something I haven't done in over 10 years and I'm doing it because I finally feel like I'm ready for it...
I'm modeling nude for an art class.
Back in my "skinny days" (before I had my daughter) I did this when I worked at an art gallery. I'm not quite sure why I did now, but it was an amazing experience and a very fond memory.
Fast forward 10 years...and I've added on 20 pounds, stretch marks in a few places, and cellulite in others...but in all honesty I'm at my happiest ever. I'll never wear a bikini again? Lands End has adorable tankini's. Thongs aren't the best look for a "mom butt"? They aren't comfortable anyways.
I'm healthy, I'm happy, and I'm working hard to strengthen and tone my body and mind so I can run in a 10k and the tough mudder race. That is way better than trying to be skinny again.
At this point in my life, I know I'm ready to do this. I'd love to see an artists rendition of my curves, muscular legs, and sexy shoulders. I'm dying to see my fiance's reaction to the images I'll have. I might sweat the whole time with nerves or exertion (believe me - it's tough to hold a pose for a few hours) but I know it won't be because I am afraid of what people might be thinking of me, totally nude.
Dare I challenge anyone else to try this? It is truly mind-blowing!
I wanted to bring up a topic that I've struggled with for years...my self-esteem and how my body image has affected it. Next month I'm doing something I haven't done in over 10 years and I'm doing it because I finally feel like I'm ready for it...
I'm modeling nude for an art class.
Back in my "skinny days" (before I had my daughter) I did this when I worked at an art gallery. I'm not quite sure why I did now, but it was an amazing experience and a very fond memory.
Fast forward 10 years...and I've added on 20 pounds, stretch marks in a few places, and cellulite in others...but in all honesty I'm at my happiest ever. I'll never wear a bikini again? Lands End has adorable tankini's. Thongs aren't the best look for a "mom butt"? They aren't comfortable anyways.
I'm healthy, I'm happy, and I'm working hard to strengthen and tone my body and mind so I can run in a 10k and the tough mudder race. That is way better than trying to be skinny again.
At this point in my life, I know I'm ready to do this. I'd love to see an artists rendition of my curves, muscular legs, and sexy shoulders. I'm dying to see my fiance's reaction to the images I'll have. I might sweat the whole time with nerves or exertion (believe me - it's tough to hold a pose for a few hours) but I know it won't be because I am afraid of what people might be thinking of me, totally nude.
Dare I challenge anyone else to try this? It is truly mind-blowing!
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That is sooo awesome! Very proud of u!0
