Self Sabotage

Shellitz

Hi all

So I have discovered that I am catching myself in a cycle of self sabotage. I was doing a fantastic job logging absolutely everything and working my food budget out nicely. I even got under 60kg (even if only slightly) and was feeling great. Sadly, I've fallen off the horse, gained back up to 61.3kg and food logging has not been very good/honest.

I am still exercising, but the lax attitude towards my food is clearly making a difference. And I am feeling really disappointed in myself. I keep feeling like this is the weight I am doomed to stay at because even though my goal is only 6kg away it's like i just can't beat that 60kg line for any permanent length of time.

I know there will be some of you out there who have felt/do feel the same way at some point in their journey. I would love to hear what has motivated you to get back int he right headspace and keep going.

Saffyra

I know how you feel. I just went through a phase just like the one you are describing. Somehow I snapped out of it. I don't want to be the same as I've always been. I know what that's like. I've been there way too long. (omg nerd alert via the Matrix)

I wrote out how I was feeling in a blog and just doing that helped me feel better. It's good to recognize the cycles of sabotage and admit to them because then you can identify realistically the things you are doing that help and the things that don't.

What did I do? I took three days off from exercise, rested up, ate on maintenance calories (1400) and then Monday got right back to logging carefully and working out. I don't know. I think my brain needed a breather as much as my body did. It seemed to help. I ate back nearly all of my exercise calories, too. And then the scale dropped!

You're not doomed!! I was thinking I was doomed to be stuck and then after I did what I mentioned above, I am now down to lower than I've been in a year.

You do have to be more vigilant with your food. Not logging the extra bites and snacks really stalled my losses. But logging and eating at maintenance allowed me more calories so I didnt feel like I needed to shove random food in. It helped me, anyway.

You have your 60kg line. My line is 128lbs. I was waffling within two pounds of that for nearly three weeks. But I went to the doctor today and weighed in at 124.6! Frigging hallelujah, I think I made it far enough past 128 to stay away from it for a while!

I hope you feel better, Shell, a lot of times it is mind over matter and a hell of a lot of discipline. YOU CAN DO IT!!

Shellitz

Thanks - I am a GIANT nerd so loved the matrix refernce

Yeah I felt better just writing the post actually. Admiting you have a problem is step one right! LOL

I have taken the good old "Monday is a clean slate" approach this week, so logged everything yesterday, including the chocolate that I wasn't supposed to eat and the peanut butter sandwhich that I didn't need. Today I hope to be much cleaner and get in at least a walk again.

I wish to high heaven that I was in my new house (fingers crossed in a couple of months I will be!) so that I could establish a routine again! Because we are living with my mother in law, I have no space or privacy to exercise inside, and we do tend to go out a lot because my fuzband gets sick of hanging with his mum! lol

Thanks so much for sharing - and you're right... I CAN DO IT