I don't actually enjoy food. Is anyone else like this?

loseweightfindpeace

Don't get me wrong, I adore the taste of ice cream or cake or cheesy pasta dishes; but I find it impossible to enjoy those foods, or any other foods for that matter. When I binge eat it has nothing to do with wanting the food or being gluttonous. It's more of a compulsion. I can't follow a strict meal plan 100% because, well, that's impossible. No one can eat the exact same meals at the exact same times every single day; life gets in the way. So I panic. I step on the scale in the morning and then at night (I can't help myself); I see that I've gained a pound. So I panic. If I can find a single flaw in my weight loss plan for the day, I give up and I binge. It's not that I want the food. I just consider the day "ruined". Since I can't log it as a successful day in my mind, I figure that I may as well binge. Then I go back to the drawing board. I get so excited because "tomorrow will be different" though it never actually is.
Even on the days that I consider successful, I still don't actually enjoy anything that I eat. I've known that I would eat it well in advance. I hardly taste it. I just methodically chew and swallow because I know I'm supposed to. Sometimes I wish I didn't have to eat. Like an alcoholic can just give up alcohol if they want to recover. Giving up food isn't an option though...

Does anyone else have this problem or am I completely insane?

SydneyVaughn

Yes I know excactly what you mean. Whenever I think I ruined a day I want to go to the store and buy my favorites food that I never eat when I am on a diet. The problem is ... they don't even appeal to me in the end. They definitly look yummy but as soon as I start eating, Im disapointed. I am idealsing the food but the taste just doesn't satisfie me.

I'll usualy tries to think about the feeling after I overeay and how the taste of the food is bad, and how bad I feel. It doesn't help all the time but I have knocked of a few binges of that. Then I try not to move, when I wake up at night and wants to go to the kitchen, I'll force myself not the leave my room. Always helps. If Im in the kitchen, it's too late

juliexiuu

I, too, sometimes binge just out of compulsion. It's probably the habit of chewing on something. I know for me, I always want to eat when I watch TV or a movie, I still do it just with healthier food!

Also, the scale can be very discouraging. How often are you weighing yourself?

loseweightfindpeace

It's a pretty bad habit. If I'm at home all day, it can be up to like 10 or 15 times in a day... I know that seems weird and pointless but I just get so curious to know what it is.
But, I just made a rule for myself that I can only weigh in ONCE on Wednesday mornings. I'm hopeful that I can stick to that...

juliexiuu

I was like that too before, weighing myself throughout the day, but it's so discouraging and I found I became so obsessed. Once a week or even twice should be good. May I suggest also taking measurements? When I started a new workout regime at the gym I put on about 4 pounds but my pants were feeling looser!

Don't give up!

greekygirl

I step on the scale in the morning and then at night (I can't help myself); I see that I've gained a pound. So I panic. If I can find a single flaw in my weight loss plan for the day, I give up and I binge. It's not that I want the food. I just consider the day "ruined". Since I can't log it as a successful day in my mind, I figure that I may as well binge. Then I go back to the drawing board. I get so excited because "tomorrow will be different" though it never actually is.

Hi there,
Of course you will weigh more at night, we all do! Unless you didn't eat anything that day, then maybe but I've never tested it.

I don't know you, but with an unbiased opinion of what you wrote, I would really try to stay off the scale after your morning weigh-in. It seems like self-sabotage to me. Maybe subconscious, but do you think by weighing at night and seeing one pound heavier, you're giving yourself an excuse to binge? This is not meant to sound rude or offensive, just an observation...something to think about. I'm sure I self-sabotage in certain ways too - I'm not trying to sound superior.

I do know what you mean about the day being ruined so might as well keep eating...I do that too. Even if I don't want it. It sucks!

b3kah5

Try journaling when you feel like binging/weighing. Just write and write and write. And exercise! Got to love those endorphins. I have been there. I would go to the store and buy a cart full of sweets because the day was ruined and I would start again tomorrow or Monday. Exercise has helped me alot. When I feel the anxiety/sadness, the last thing I want to do is exercise. But I do, and I can feel a difference a the end. I am still struggling and think I will all my life, but I am learning tools to help me so I don't go get that cart full of added pounds.