OT but needed to let it out!

mommy062706

I feel like such a horrible mommy today! I went total PMDD monster on my kids this morning! This always happens about 3-4 days before AF comes. The littest things set me off. It's not nearly as bad as it was before I started taking YAZ but some months it is still really bad. AUG! I feel so terrible! And I know while I am going off that it is terrible but I just can't stop yelling! *sigh* How do you all get out of this monster mood when it hits?? Thanks for letting me vent ladies! I am going to go apologize to my girls and try to restart this day!

stitchinhippie

I'm so sorry that that happened. I don't have children, but I am a nanny and I know how hard it is to stay composed when the little ones do things to push your buttons. I have gone off on my fiance quite a few times over the years. The only thing that helps for me is to go for a very long walk. Basically, I see it as burning off all of that anger. When I get back from my walk I am a completely different person. I know you probably can't do that since you can't leave the kids. Maybe take them with you? Also, (this might sound kooky, but I am a spiritual person) I pray and remember the damage that screaming and yelling causes. Daily meditation helps me to stay mindful of what my goal is....to remain calm at all times and be a peaceful, loving, compassionate person. Ok, enough of my kookiness. lol Hope this helps.

Deltafliers

Lol. I know that isn't persay nice, but I was the same way last week (trully and honestly); I guess I kinda thought I was the only one who get's that bad and everyone else is better at composing themselves.

Usually, when my husband is home he takes over a majority of the child rearing responsibility during that week (mine usually lasts about a week). Thankfully he can tell what is going on because he says I act completely differently, and has learned to take everything that week with a grain of salt.

However, he is deployed and it is just me, my six-year-old and one-year-old. I can't say I have done very well, but my six year old is a bit more understanding now because I explained to her that it was a sickness that comes every month. My six-year-old tends to play more in her room, and if the baby is so fussing that I need a break she either plays with her sister, or goes to her crib. I can't say I like doing this, I hate it, but then again I despise screaming at my kids for petty stuff or even at all. What makes this harder for me is my daughter's love language is words of affirmation.

This month, Anika discovered that i we walked before bed, the baby was happy, and the six year old said she felt happier because "I don't scream as much and have fun with her." My thinking is all the pent up aggression gets released by the energy it takes to walk. The girls also have a 30 min earlier bedtime; the older is allowed to use it as quiet time and read a book or play on her psp.

My goal for next month is to have freezer dinners and lunchs prepared; I am hoping this time saver will add more time to my patience limit.

Deltafliers

Also, when it is really out of controlI I was prescribed an anti anxiety med; however, there are more natural, herbal, remidies you could take with out a prescription, and just take them during the week.

If you have prescription meds tho, you need to check with your doctor first--I can't take the herbal remedies because they conflict with my other meds.

Also, I researched some high-estrogene foods, so next month, I am going to try and eliminate those foods from my diets during that week and see if it makes a difference. I'll keep you posted on the food portion...did you know soy milk has a high estrogene content. I can't persay afford to go to an organic food store all the time, but if it makes an attitude difference I could probably find a way to make it work one week out of a month.

mommy062706

Thank you ladies! I am so glad I am not the only one! Sometimes I just don't feel like myself and I have almost an out of body experiance! I am standing there like, who is this crazy women being mean??!! stitchinhippi, I am a Christian and believe strongly in prayer and I know I need spiritual help in this aspect. This is just something that is not easy to go up to someone and say, hey I am crazy and need help! Lol. Deltafliers, let me know how the food goes for you! I am very curious to see if it helps. I might have to check with my doc and see what I can take with the YAZ. Hopefully I can find something! Thank you again ladies!

stitchinhippie

I know exactly how you feel....I have totally been there before. Screaming and throwing things and totally out of control and a little voice in my head saying "what are you doing? This isn't who you are." I have gotten into fights with my husband-to-be that have been so bad that there has been damage done to the house and we both have bruises all because of my crazy pmdd behavior (paranoia, depression, anger...) After speaking to my nurse practitioner (who put me on never ending hormones which just made it worse) I spoke to my spiritual advisor about it, which was not easy to do. How do you talk to a monk about your period? lol I was so embarrassed by my behavior and felt like such a failure, but I thought he was the best person to turn to. He told me to start walking. And, he gave me a step by step guide for when my frustration and anger take over. Also, I started praying and meditating every morning after my walk which starts my day being mindful. My "hubby" and I haven't had a blow-out since September and we celebrate every month. It is definitely not easy to talk about, because I have found that even people I spoke to in the medical field were not that understanding. One of the doctors I spoke to just kind of half listened and told me that her other patients with similar symptoms just take an anti-depressant for that week every month. I was looking for someone to truly listen and understand and surprisingly my guru did. Other forums I found in my research into pmdd recommend meditation...I found a lot of women who have tried it and worked for them more-so then anti-depressants. Anyway, sorry for rambling. lol Hope this helps at least a little.