Learn from every binge!
paulaGetshealthy
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I am currently doing so many things to fight this disorder (OA meetings, I have a sponsor, therapist, reading books, etc), and every time I have a binge, instead of crying about it and pitying myself, I try to learn from it.
I wrote a blog on the most recent binge (which lasted THREE days!), and what I learned. Here is the link: http://www.myfitnesspal.com/blog/paulaGetshealthy/view/pathway-to-peace-247013
I wrote a blog on the most recent binge (which lasted THREE days!), and what I learned. Here is the link: http://www.myfitnesspal.com/blog/paulaGetshealthy/view/pathway-to-peace-247013
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Awesome. Learning our triggers and learning from binges is the pathway to healing. I'm so glad you're here!
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This is great! I'm glad that you're on your way to recovery!
I had an "ah ha" moment with my bingeing as well. I was 13 days binge free until yesterday. I saw a picture of my ex boyfriend with his new girlfriend and it made me so upset. I was all alone in my room and reached for the junk food. I live in a dorm so I went down to the lobby and just started buying things from the vending machine. I can't remember what exactly I got. Cookies, various candy bars, etc. Then I ordered a pizza and ate half of it. I ate so much that I almost couldn't breathe. I couldn't lay down because I was in so much pain from my binge. I tried taking a shower, but I was moaning I was in so much pain. Then before I knew it, my body start rejecting and I started throwing up. I didn't MAKE myself throw up, I have never purged on purpose before. But it was a scary moment sitting over my trashcan getting sick to my stomach because I ate so much. I was in so much PAIN from my binge. Even after throwing up 3 times I STILL felt sick and bloated.
I woke up this morning feeling bloated and still sick. But I was determined to eat because I was not going to starve myself. I have done the whole binge-starve cycle so I have learned the best way to recover from a binge is to try to eat as normally as possible. So this morning I had oatmeal and a protein shake. I still feel sick and bloated and I am REALLY dreading the next week until my weight goes back to normal. I hate how tight my jeans are for a week after a binge.... worst feeling!
But I learned something from this binge. I will not do it again. I hope I stick to my word, but I honestly do NOT want to feel that pain again. I don't want to keep doing this myself. Eating until I physically threw up was scary. I don't want to do it ever again. And being binge free for 13 days and KNOWING it's possible makes me want to be binge free forever!
Sorry this is so long. Good luck to everyone!
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Great blog, Paula! Good luck on your journey
@Abigaillee I have done the same! Now i try to remind me that jerks aren't work it and that being fit and pretty is the best revenge of all toward an ex
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I think it's wonderful that you have so much isight into why you binge. For me, I'm still trying to figure out what emotion it is that I'm using food to cover up! I'll get there, it's just taking some time.
I recently looked into OA but couldn't find a group near me, which is why I tried to get some friends on MFP who would understand what I was going through. I've met some great people so far and love talking to somebody who understands this as an addiction and not just a simple case of eating the wrong foods.0 -
Great blog post, thank you for sharing. Today is a new day for me after 3 days of binging each day, I have had it. I did have an "ah ha" moment while reading and know that one thing that triggers mine is when I feel out of control in my life--which is happening a lot lately. I need to remind myself of what you wrote in your post when the same thing happens this week.0
