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a "non-struggle" struggle

arielaliza

Do you guys ever feel over the fight? For the past couple of days I have almost been feeling a casual "eh whatever" feeling with my BED/ED.... I do not feel guilty or all that upset with my decisions, even though they have been really self destructive... I know I am PMSing, but usually I feel in the throws of a struggle... Now I am feeling like I simply dont care what happens, and I pack on weight so easy that a couple of weeks of this feeling and all my weight will be back on... Blah.... Any advice when you feel at peace with self-destructive behavior?

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graelwyn

Is it a being at peace, or a given up sense though?
They can feel very similar in some ways.
I never feel at ease when I have binged, even though I tend to naturally crave healthy foods again after a couple of them.
But I have gotten in states where I have quit on exercise, having done it to excess, simply because I bored of trying.

greekygirl

I was going to reply to this earlier but wanted to think about it first.

I sort of know what you're saying. In the past, I would go through "I don't care" phases but would always put on weight. Sometimes it lasted longer than others - sometimes days, months...even years, ugh. I was constantly yo-yo-ing.

Now, the only time I really think like that is before a binge. I am thinking "I don't care" when I'm in binge mode, right before I go for it. But I'm always regretful afterward. So I keep on keeping on.

Sometimes, it just needs to burn itself out. I just kind of go with it and sooner or later I will get my motivation back. It's usually sooner than later, thankfully.

Stick around and I think your mood will be short-lived. I agree with graelwyn - I start to crave healthy food after a couple days of bingeing.

Hang in there! You'll be fine!

:flowerforyou:

arielaliza

Thanks guys! Yes, I am back on track now! Before, I would get derailed by something- a bout of sadness or something- and then even when I got over whatever was bugging me I still was in "eh, screw iit" mode and wanting to just enjoy life and food without stressing so much about it. The only problem is in all reality that causes more stress when you gain the weight so its a horrible mind set.. I am so happy to say this feeling lasted only for a few days... I am hoping that w MFP and other new things I have been learning that my slumps will get shorter and less severe.... Fingers crossed

MJ7910

i've noticed that when i stop caring my binges get really bad for a while and then go away because i am releasing control. it is weird how that happens.

IsMollyReallyHungry

I can definitely relate. Right now I am in the just can't get motivated mode. One thing I make sure I do for these times so I will not get too far up in pounds, is I weigh myself daily. At some point I say no more and kick it right back in gear.