Constant uphill battle.

nickyfm

I am so sick of being stuck in this binge/over exercising/guilt/weight gain & loss cycle.
I was doing so well. Hadn't binged in almost 2 months.
And then today I was feeling unwell with the flu, so i decided it was ok to treat myself to 'comfort snacks'. Of COURSE it didn't stop at a normal amount. why didn't I see that coming?!

And of course, now I feel ill, terribly anxious, guilty and I'm going to go to the gym later because it's the only way to unload my anxiety.

I'm just so freaking exhausted. I feel like It's such a "1 step forward, 2 steps back" kind of illness. I do so well for so long, and then 1 mistake undoes it all.

Does anyone else feel this way? How do you deal?

greekygirl

Yes, I understand.

First, and I'm only saying this because I care, if you have the flu you should NOT go to the gym! I don't care how bad your binge was, you should let yourself get well! I'm sure you don't want to get sicker....plus you don't want to spread your illness around to everyone else, right?

AND, that sounds like punishment to me - please don't punish yourself! You're not a bad person!

Two months binge-free is a HUGE accomplishment!! Please know that!! One mistake didn't undo all of that! Forget about this morning and move on.

I understand your pain....how do I deal? I pick myself back up and try to move forward the best I can. It's not easy, sometimes I drive myself CRAZY but all that seems to do is make it worse!

Please take good care of yourself.

MJ7910

yes 2 months is great. you can bounce back from this. just remember that it was 1 binge. you can start a new streak. you probably learned somethign from this. that is what i try to do, learn from when i have a binge after a long streak. I have learned the following about myself because of my binging: I cannot have sweets around me, especially chocolate, it is best I stay away or have 1 and then get very very busy and forget about it. Boredom and alone time are huge triggers. If I am putting off doing somethign else, it is likely I"ll binge so I need to stop procrastinating and get started on whatever I am avoiding. I can stop. I can walk away. I can pop a piece of gum. Even if I don't want gum, I just do it when I feel a strong urge. It really helps. A cup of hot tea can help stop one. If I'm stressed the best thing to do is lie down and not eat! Read a book with ideast of stopping binging strategies in it can help. Think through what is going on. Analyze it. Don't beat myself up but analyze what I am thinking and why. Sit down, take out a piece of paper. Write what is going through my head. These are all things I learned in the midst of binging. And I"m sure you have some too.