Looking for a bit of help, please!
Settuccini
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Hello, everyone! Thanks for reading, if you do. I am just curious about a few things and possibly looking for tips/guidance and perhaps even a few success stories? I mainly just want someone to talk to or to read this, because I have no one else, and I am really struggling to overcome whatever this is. I know this will be jumbled and confused. I'm sorry! 
I am a 20 year old female who's 114 pounds at 5'2.5". I take Synthroid 112 MCG and have been taking medication for my hypothyroidism since I was 14. I've never particularly felt good or that I had energy, I have always felt quite sluggish. I've struggled with losing/maintaining weight, and I have an unhealthy obsession with food. I eat around 750-850~ calories a day (explained more later) and am about 90% healthy in what I eat. I do pilates 5 times a week for 25-40 minutes and stretch 10-20 minutes.
About a year ago, I began to obsess about my calorie intake and slowly started to lessen the calories I was eating. I wanted weight loss. I hated being my former 135 pound self. I ate "healthy," but I was only eating 650-700 calories a day. I understand this is extremely unhealthy, but I was seeing weight loss, so I kept it up for as long as I could. About six months later, I got down to 97 pounds, had long since lost my period, and realized what I was doing was wrong, and started to up my calorie intake and exercise. I was still maintaining my weight pretty decently, but gained a few which I attributed to muscle mass. I maintained, that is, until my doctor changed my medication to 100 MCG Synthroid. I felt awful. Depressed. Suicidal. Gained 17 pounds. Cried all the time. Couldn't sleep. Just, you know... That general awfulness that follows Hypothyroid disease. One thing that I did get back for a short time was my period. However, it would only last two days and was extremely light.
Went back to the doctor and told him how awful I felt, and he put me back on 112 MCG Synthroid. I felt better quite quickly. Was pretty amazing. However, now that I've been on it for around 2 1/2 months, I feel like I'm slowly becoming depressed again. I'm tired all the time, despite getting a good sleep. I'm craving carbs like crazy. My period is gone again. My heart rate accelerates at random. I feel like I can't intake enough air at times. I'm a bit cranky and I'm becoming extremely forgetful. I'll forget what I was talking about mid-sentence. It's driving me (and the person I'm talking to) nuts!
So now, here I am. Feeling like this, getting slightly worse every week, I think. I'm juggling this whilst trying to rebuild my body and get it healthy again, so I can start to lose weight the healthy way. Yes, I know I'm at a healthy BMI, but I'd like to be around 105, not 115.
However, the problem is, I don't know where to start. I don't know what to do, or how to do it. Should I suggest to my doctor that I'd like to be placed on Armour? Should I ask him how a thyroid diet should be or if I'm getting enough calories at 850? I feel like it's not enough still, but I'm so freaked out at having gained 17 pounds in 3 months.
Sorry this is so long and confusing. I can't exactly word it and make it crystal clear. Thanks for reading, if you did. Also, I'd like to get to the point where I eat even more than I am now. It's so embedded in my head that I'll just gain a ton of weight and get back to 135 lbs, so I'm nervous. All in time, I hope.
I am a 20 year old female who's 114 pounds at 5'2.5". I take Synthroid 112 MCG and have been taking medication for my hypothyroidism since I was 14. I've never particularly felt good or that I had energy, I have always felt quite sluggish. I've struggled with losing/maintaining weight, and I have an unhealthy obsession with food. I eat around 750-850~ calories a day (explained more later) and am about 90% healthy in what I eat. I do pilates 5 times a week for 25-40 minutes and stretch 10-20 minutes.
About a year ago, I began to obsess about my calorie intake and slowly started to lessen the calories I was eating. I wanted weight loss. I hated being my former 135 pound self. I ate "healthy," but I was only eating 650-700 calories a day. I understand this is extremely unhealthy, but I was seeing weight loss, so I kept it up for as long as I could. About six months later, I got down to 97 pounds, had long since lost my period, and realized what I was doing was wrong, and started to up my calorie intake and exercise. I was still maintaining my weight pretty decently, but gained a few which I attributed to muscle mass. I maintained, that is, until my doctor changed my medication to 100 MCG Synthroid. I felt awful. Depressed. Suicidal. Gained 17 pounds. Cried all the time. Couldn't sleep. Just, you know... That general awfulness that follows Hypothyroid disease. One thing that I did get back for a short time was my period. However, it would only last two days and was extremely light.
Went back to the doctor and told him how awful I felt, and he put me back on 112 MCG Synthroid. I felt better quite quickly. Was pretty amazing. However, now that I've been on it for around 2 1/2 months, I feel like I'm slowly becoming depressed again. I'm tired all the time, despite getting a good sleep. I'm craving carbs like crazy. My period is gone again. My heart rate accelerates at random. I feel like I can't intake enough air at times. I'm a bit cranky and I'm becoming extremely forgetful. I'll forget what I was talking about mid-sentence. It's driving me (and the person I'm talking to) nuts!
So now, here I am. Feeling like this, getting slightly worse every week, I think. I'm juggling this whilst trying to rebuild my body and get it healthy again, so I can start to lose weight the healthy way. Yes, I know I'm at a healthy BMI, but I'd like to be around 105, not 115.
However, the problem is, I don't know where to start. I don't know what to do, or how to do it. Should I suggest to my doctor that I'd like to be placed on Armour? Should I ask him how a thyroid diet should be or if I'm getting enough calories at 850? I feel like it's not enough still, but I'm so freaked out at having gained 17 pounds in 3 months.
Sorry this is so long and confusing. I can't exactly word it and make it crystal clear. Thanks for reading, if you did. Also, I'd like to get to the point where I eat even more than I am now. It's so embedded in my head that I'll just gain a ton of weight and get back to 135 lbs, so I'm nervous. All in time, I hope.
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You are not eating enough. Thyroid is only partly to blame. It scares me when I see someone eating 850 calories a day. Talk to your doctor. Get referred to a specialist. You are to young to risk the personal injury you could be doing to yourself.0
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Hi Settuccini :flowerforyou:
You made perfect sense. Thanks for sharing your story. It sounds like you need a Dr that will treat your symptoms, not just your TSH. There is lots of info on that at stopthethyroidmadness . Check it out. Its really important beings the way you feel, to get your meds straightened out. It may be that you need a totally different treatment then you're getting.
What I have discovered with very low calories is that your body will fight you. If you up your calories (using clean foods), and rotate your calories.... 1200 being your low day... then 1300 next day...1400 next day...1500 being your high day, then start over. You will find that your body will "let go" of that weight you gained. Right now you're in starvation mode, and it will only get worse & worse if you don't stop doing that. Because your body will take the nutrients it needs from your muscles, thus lowering your metabolism... not nice!
Hope you feel better soon! :flowerforyou:0
