Diet? What diet?!
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Summerlove1993
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I feeling like I'm on a rollercoaster of fun, excitement, drama, tragedy, goodbyes, and parties. Nowhere has there been any kind of structure that would support me in my dieting efforts. In fact, there has been no effort. I've just been holding on for dear life.
June began with my daughter's formal dance, don't forget the hair appointment and mani-pedi, and my daughter was accepted to a performing arts high school!!! I worked at a golf tournament fundraiser, celebrated my daughter's confirmation, confirmation party, and her final middle school chorus and band concert. I dealt with my daughter's drama with friends which resulted in her losing her elementary & middle school BFF (worst experience ever). I had orchestrated and celebrated my class's graduation, my husband's birthday, my friend's bridal shower, father's day, my daughter's 8th grade field trip, and my end of school party with colleagues. I cried over my friend's brain tumor diagnosis (seriously?!) I hosted several sleepovers and my daughter's pool party.
I'm sorry, but all of the ups and downs resulted in me eating to excess much of the time. I am an emotional eater, and all of this upheaval has been really hard on me. I feel my daughter's pain like a stab in my heart. I worry about my friend who is in surgery to remove her tumor right now. I had to say goodbye to some very special little people. I celebrate the joys with enthusiasm.
So far today I have stayed on program and exercised. I'm not doing this one day at a time, I'm doing it one minute at a time. I'm trying to put some structure into any unstructured time of year. I'm doing my best to hold on.
June began with my daughter's formal dance, don't forget the hair appointment and mani-pedi, and my daughter was accepted to a performing arts high school!!! I worked at a golf tournament fundraiser, celebrated my daughter's confirmation, confirmation party, and her final middle school chorus and band concert. I dealt with my daughter's drama with friends which resulted in her losing her elementary & middle school BFF (worst experience ever). I had orchestrated and celebrated my class's graduation, my husband's birthday, my friend's bridal shower, father's day, my daughter's 8th grade field trip, and my end of school party with colleagues. I cried over my friend's brain tumor diagnosis (seriously?!) I hosted several sleepovers and my daughter's pool party.
I'm sorry, but all of the ups and downs resulted in me eating to excess much of the time. I am an emotional eater, and all of this upheaval has been really hard on me. I feel my daughter's pain like a stab in my heart. I worry about my friend who is in surgery to remove her tumor right now. I had to say goodbye to some very special little people. I celebrate the joys with enthusiasm.
So far today I have stayed on program and exercised. I'm not doing this one day at a time, I'm doing it one minute at a time. I'm trying to put some structure into any unstructured time of year. I'm doing my best to hold on.
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Oh Summer...You have had your hands and heart exceptionally full! Please know you are not alone...as moms, we carry the load of responsibility for the well-being of our families (not that our husbands don't suffer - they just don't verbalize it much), and I think moms feel they must make all things right, at whatever cost.
This HAS been a tough year... I lost my dear friend (and mother-figure) after a 26 year battle with cancer (it had spread from her breast to her bones) but she never complained - and was a valiant fighter until the end.
I saw my child wage a primary election fight for house rep because he wants to change the world...most exciting primary I have ever voted in (and first primary election party I have ever thrown - much less, attended!) and although he lost, he walked away with almost a third of the vote! Not bad for a 21 year old first-timer!
Same darling child was told by a specialist a month ago that he was dying. Dear Lord, haven't I had ENOUGH stress yet? Thankfully, people are praying around the world for my son - and as of yesterday, he had gained 22.5lbs in the past month! Yes, I believe in miracles...and a God who hears and answers prayer!
Normally, I can't eat when life's challenges come my way. I don't "forget" to eat, like some people, just feel nauseous and my nerves get shaky...which burns the calories even more.
However, last night - was definitely feeling the "where's the food" emotions. My youngest went on his first "official" date (and borrowed my Camaro) ... I started with a bowl of ice cream...sure, add the Hershey's chocolate! (I am not even overly fond of ice cream!) He still wasn't home...hand me that bag of chips... Still wasn't home, hmmm, the bag of chips is almost empty!
Somehow survived... God won't give us more than we can handle (and yes, I often think his idea of how strong I am differs from mine!)
Hope your summer goes more smoothly! Will be praying for your friend's surgery to go well.
Kat
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You have certainly experienced some real highs and lows. I am very impressed with your 21 year old, and I pray that he and you, and your family find the strength to deal with this collossal challenge.
On a much lighter note, I giggled when I pictured you waiting up for your other son. I could just imagine myself doing the same on my daughter's official first date in a car. It was so much easier when she was little, and I could control everything.
I appreciate you "getting it." It is not only the sorrows in life that cause stress, it can be the joys as well.
I will pray for your family.0
