Evening Chatter?

shewhowrestleswolves

I hope everyone had a good day. I was driving around doing errands and was thinking about the meaning of life. I've been doing more of that now that I'm fifty and I have grasped that I am not going to live forever. Today my thought was thought was: life is to do something positive, make something happen, keep the ball rolling or get it rolling in the right direction. Whether it's for yourself or for someone else, whether it's a large action or a small one...to have something at the end of the day that makes you feel good that you did it.

I dropped another pound today for a total of 6 pounds in about as many weeks. I almost fell off the scale in shock because I could not believe I had lost another pound. For those who are having a rough patch, stick with it because it will work. About 2 months ago, before I found MFP I resigned myself to the fact that I would weigh 200 pounds for the rest of my life. So much of my readiness to accept my fatness was denial of how many calories I was actually eating because it was healthy stuff. I was still in denial the first couple of weeks and was not measuring my portions. I have binged a couple of times enjoyed it and proudly logged every embarrassing morsel but I've still lost weight for being good most of the time.

1960lisa

So much of my readiness to accept my fatness was denial of how many calories I was actually eating because it was healthy stuff. I was still in denial the first couple of weeks and was not measuring my portions. I have binged a couple of times enjoyed it and proudly logged every embarrassing morsel but I've still lost weight for being good most of the time.

I can relate so much to this...I have always eaten very healthy food (along with the occasional burst of ice cream or chocolate indulgences) but when I started MFP I weighed and worked out how many calories were in my "healthy" breakfast and nearly fell of the chair...I was having lovely organic toasted muesli or porridge, with flaxseed oil, lecithin, banana, yoghurt, maple syrup, soy milk, etc, etc...all organic...lovely....and nearly a days worth of calories in that one meal!!!

I still stop and weigh things sometimes as I know my tendency is always to underestimate how much I am having...all that lovely organic food has to be good for me doesn't it....unfortunately good and healthy isn't the same as low calorie! I would still rather have the full fat organic versions of food than any "lite" stuff but I am learning to less is more (I learnt this phrase in art class all those years ago and I finally get it).

And I am losing weight very very slowly because I have told myself I am not on a diet but rather learning a new lifestyle...unfortunately this means that I still break out and have emotional "binges" a bit more often than I probably should...but I'm now lighter than I have been in years and well on my way to my goal weight and I'm fitter than I have been in over 20 years....so life is good....and I don't feel that I am denying myself.

Congratulations on your loss....long may it continue:drinker: