my *kitten* needs kicking....

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so today I sat around a felt sorry for myself and ate a bunch of crap that I shouldn't have and it has only made me feel worse.... I figured I'd watch my favorite tv program to try and take my mind of things and it reminded me of why I want this, and that I want it badly.... Jennifer Carpenter is my ideal size/weight goal, she is also ****ing hot and I'm beginning to wonder what its' going to take to motivate myself to achieve my goals??? I think I need to start with an *kitten* kicking for feeling sorry for myself, followed by some motivation about staying on track with this.. I know its' a big ask but can anyone help me???