Sometimes I just need a little help.

I'm new to the group, but I'm just going to throw my story out there. I started smoking at the age of 16, am now 24. When I was a kid, I remember telling my dad how bad his cigarettes smelled, and I would never smoke. HA, Jokes on me.
I quit smoking for 17 months, and picked it up again for 2 months. Went into the military, quit smoking all the way until my 3rd week of tech school, and I've tried to quit numerous times since then.
I've tried cutting back, replacing with the e-cigs, chewing gum, even some medication/therapy. None worked. I realize I will have to quit cold turkey...and I've tried that 3 times in the past year. Every time I get to my 3rd day, I pick up a dang cigarette. I already have that "go big or go home" mentality, so really I don't know why this is so hard for me. It makes me feel like a complete failure.
The last time I did a 3 day quit, I cried the entire time. I seriously felt like my best friend had died. My poor husband didn't know what to do. To add: He is also a smoker, which makes things difficult.
I've quit drinking (for the most part), but it's not hard for me anymore to say no to drinking. I try to eliminate triggers that make me smoke. But, if I rid all my triggers, I will become a zombie. There is always an excuse for me to have just one more.
I'm a pack/day smoker, most days a little more than that. I know it is an awful habit/addiction. Unfortunately, I do have a addictive personality. *sigh*
As bad as we want children, I would just think it would be so much easier for me to lay down the smokes. I just need a little advice I guess. What worked for you? Did you set a date? How did you replace the urge to smoke?..or what did you do to replace the time when you would've been smoking? Really, anything that might help me.Thanks in advance.

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