What's wrong with me?

FeelGoodNow13

So I was with my family yesterday and I got a glimpse of myself sitting there on the couch; I was just disgusted. I can't believe that I went from a thin, young, happy teenager to a blob in my adulthood, who is constantly worrying about what people are going to say about my weight, so much so that I loathe going to public functions were people I know will see me. I never thought I would end up here, no one in my family is fat and here I just ate myself into oblivion. I am trying to use this as motivation, but its hard to believe that I can when twice I have made it to my goal weight and those times I only had to lose about 35 pounds, and both times I packed it back on. This time I have to lose between 55 and 65lbs, which for some may not seen like much but for me its a lot. I can be doing well for months then usually something triggers with school and I binge like crazy, I eat and eat until my stomach hurts and I think its going to burst. Once it was so bad I got physically sick. Then I cycle into that and put the weight back on. I don't know where this binging came from I never had a problem with food before now it's like my enemy. Ugh... I almost didn't want to post this because I didn't want to come off as as a whiny spoiled brat, but I have no one to talk to. I just want and need to conquer this once and for all, I don't want to be another obese American statistic.

Chibea

Glad you posted,:drinker:
Talking about binge eating with people who have the same problem has been very helpful for me.
I empathize with everything you wrote, especially the part about 'I cycle into that" ... yeah, that cycle is what has me as heavy as I am today.
It is wonderful that you are ready to confront this and do what you have to to get better!

So, what is wrong with you is, it appears, that you are a binge eater...but that doesn't mean you can't lose the weight. If you look at the people who post on this group, you'll see some substantial weight loss and you'll see people who aren't overweight. Even with this problem, you can be successful in your goals!! Being aware of what you do and figuring out what your triggers are really helps.
And for me, that cycle thing you mentioned has been the worst for me to overcome. Just because we binge one day, it doesn't mean we have to binge the next day. In the past, I have felt like such a failure when I did that and I would just give up. That has been my downfall. I can't say that I am losing as fast as the people who don't have this problem are, but I am steadily losing and at the same time, I am managing the binge eating a lot better than I was before I found this support group.
Keep your focus on your long term goals and don't get too hung up on one day's mistakes.
Just don't give up!!!!!!

Springfield_Rocks

Glad you posted,:drinker:
Talking about binge eating with people who have the same problem has been very helpful for me.
I empathize with everything you wrote, especially the part about 'I cycle into that" ... yeah, that cycle is what has me as heavy as I am today.
It is wonderful that you are ready to confront this and do what you have to to get better!

So, what is wrong with you is, it appears, that you are a binge eater...but that doesn't mean you can't lose the weight. If you look at the people who post on this group, you'll see some substantial weight loss and you'll see people who aren't overweight. Even with this problem, you can be successful in your goals!! Being aware of what you do and figuring out what your triggers are really helps.
And for me, that cycle thing you mentioned has been the worst for me to overcome. Just because we binge one day, it doesn't mean we have to binge the next day. In the past, I have felt like such a failure when I did that and I would just give up. That has been my downfall. I can't say that I am losing as fast as the people who don't have this problem are, but I am steadily losing and at the same time, I am managing the binge eating a lot better than I was before I found this support group.
Keep your focus on your long term goals and don't get too hung up on one day's mistakes.
Just don't give up!!!!!!

yes, well said indeed!

Yeah, BED sucks, but I also find it very helpful to be a part of this group.

This is also a helpful group/post. http://www.myfitnesspal.com/topics/show/937709-in-place-of-a-road-map-ver-3-0

For me, finding out how much I can eat and still lose has been so helpful. 1200 calories was KILLING me. I would binge, starve, binge, starve.

How are we supposed to stop binging and lose weight if we are starving all of the time?!?!??!

The "In place of a road map" group has been a life saver for me.

You can join the group and educate yourself about the body and how it burns calories. Dan will help you figure out the calculations if you need the help.

Between the BED group and the In Place of a Road Map Group, I am having some real success.

Hang in there, and remember to love yourself. It's not easy, so take it one day at a time.

Hugs :flowerforyou: