Surrounded by people yet totally alone.

Inshape13

Today has been quite a day....actually the last few days to be exact. It all started with a single raisin bran muffin and days of intense exercise. With the amount of activity I have been doing I decided to up my carbs and calories from around 1500/1700 to around 1900/2000 a day to make up for calories burned to not net too low. WELLLLLLL...that went ok for the first few days then out of nowhere I was hit with a huge binge today that is crazy. It has been a while since this binge has reared it's head, but I went full throttle sugar/wheat eating today and feel a bit defeated at the moment.

Needless to say I am the only one in my family(other than a close relative who chooses not to change things or exercise) that has any food issues. Other addictions plague then just not food.....so I go to talk and get the "It is your choice just stop eating junk" or "you know you shouldn't even eat that stuff it does it every time". I feel so very unrelatable to anyone right now and just wanted to reach out to you all who know what it is like to go through this.

Just had to vent and get it out there with my feelings. Thanks for taking the time to read and have a great weekend.

sam308lbs

I know how you feel.The only "advice" i get from my family is "be strong" or just eat smaller portions...i mean seriously? They have no clue what i am going through.After losing 97 lbs.i too decided to take a little diet break and up my calories which exploded into no holds barred binge eating day in and out.Most of my fl looks up to me and i feel so ashamed i dont even wanna discuss all this with them so i just stay quiet.Seems like you are doing much better than me cuz i have been bingeing daily over here.I am suppose to apply to a college which would be perfect for me but i cant cuz i want to get a control over my eating habits which is clearly not happening..Food is ruining my life

Inshape13

Thanks for your reply because this has been such a struggle today and it is good to know that I am not the only one. It is difficult when people say "make the choice not to do it" like I just decide to complicate things and choose to make life hard on purpose. Hopefully this is a one day thing because it is still going on today. I hope that it gets better for you and it will get better.

Springfield_Rocks

hang in there! you both are so inspiring to me. I have a lot to lose and it is amazing to see success from people who have the same struggles i do.

thanks for being here!