Hey girl!
I totally know that feeling. I was listening to Jillian Michael's podcast one day and Bob Harper was her guest. They were talking about how sometimes clients will say to them, "I can't wait to stop counting calories and watching what I eat" or "Will I ever get to stop worrying about my diet?" And they were like, unfortunately the reality is is that even WE have to watch what we eat, it never ends.
For me it was like a light bulb moment to realize that that will likely be the case for me too and it made it feel less like a "bad thing" after hearing how those 2 super fit people are also still continually aware of what they're putting into their bodies. Does that make sense? Hope it helps you feel better like it made me feel better!

I am in a family where all 6 of my tiny inlaws never have to watch what they eat. They are all under 110lbs, lazy, and eat like a pig. They have kids and shrink back to nothing. For me I not only have to watch what I eat, but I have to exercise like a crazy lady. It feels unfair that some people have to live the rest of their lives depriving themselves if they want to live a healthy life. I am one of these people. I gained 3 lbs by quitting exercise for 2 weeks. Who does this??? I dont understand why we have to have the cravings, the rapid weight gain, the depression. This website is so valuable because of the support when in need, with the exception of some people criticizing.