you aren't bad - you are human.
we all have struggles.

i don't know what to say to help because i am like you.
i eat when i'm not hungry.
maybe you could try using a food journal and write down everything you eat.
maybe you could also pay attention to how you feel before during and after you eat the food and write those feelings down as well.
maybe that will help you figure some things out.

i wish you well!

I find that calorie counting helps me. Having to account for everything I put in my mouth.

This helps me as well.

It' has also helped me learn how to choose snacks better because I know what I'm getting myself into.

My biggest help was admitting that I'm a compulsive eater to those I'm closest to. I eventually went as far as writing about it on facebook. Now it's common knowledge of those around me and I feel I can talk about it openly. Before it was a big secret and I felt so ashamed. Now that those around me know, it feels less heavy. I still struggle, but because I can talk about it I have an easier time getting through the cravings.

Don't get me wrong, I still have terrible trouble, but I feel better and have more days that are good than bad.

Find someone you REALLY trust and know will be supportive and not judgmental and just tell them.

Here is what I posted on facebook, perhaps it will help you in some way. I have friends that it helped. By my saying it in front of the world, a few of my friends gained courage to say it too.

Empower yourself.

"Living an interesting life is exhausting. I could converse with most anyone, from a university professors to a blue collar truck driver, Pagans to Buddhists to Fundamentalist Christians on any given day until the end of that day. Since a very young age I have had a lot to say. People have been telling me to shut up since I learned to speak. My father tells me I used to ramble on about nothing. I would continually talk about nothing till they told me, "Okay, it's time to stop talking now."

As I got into my early teens I became aware of others telling me, "You talk a lot." I was a rather awkward teen and this only added to my feelings of self-consciousness. I battle depression and anxiety throughout puberty. My favorite explanation and the most accurate was something I overheard my brother say to my parents on a morning after I had gotten myself into a heap of trouble. He said, "Rachel has always thought she was one step below everyone else." This was very accurate. Was.

Luckily, the universe is designed so we grow up and I don't feel quite as self-conscious anymore. I do still struggle with the coping mechanisms I created in my youth. To this day I am secretive. I am a compulsive eater. I eat in secret. I hide food. I eat healthy in front of people and plan for those times when I know I'll be alone. Just writing about it makes me start to shut down. It's shameful. It's a coping mechanism.

I have a lot of coping mechanisms and it one of my coping mechanisms that allows me to live an interesting life, meet interesting people and have interesting hobbies.

I have a great need for instant gratification and therefore, a short attention span. I take on projects and hold jobs just long enough to get bored and frustrated and become a novice expert. I know a little bit about everything.

I love change:
I'm a singer, reader, religion/politics/philosophy buff. I spin fire, make costumes, hula hoop. I've been a cake decorator, vacation guide, cell phone salesperson, Barista, caterer and now I work in publishing. I like teaching and learning. I love a debate and even more, I love being right.

Being interesting is exhausting. It is a constant search for the knowledge, belief system, hobby, occupation or ability that will provide the final and complete satisfaction. Being interesting is really nothing more than a coping mechanism."

Rach

i am a type 1 diabetic and may be developing the eating disorder called diabulimia. it is where you binge and dont to a bolus for the carbs you just ate because you are scared of weight gain, or you just refuse to bolus after the meals needed to be counted for. i just skip a bolus after i binge and it has been hard with me this thanksgiving holiday. i am doing good as of now but i am scared of the christmas holiday. i am scared to come home now because i know i can eat any food in my house. i am trying to get back on here and log in all my foods and also carry a book around to log in my blood glucose and what i eat to see what exactly i need to change or keep doing. i need a little motivation from you guys. happy holidays!

Focusing on eating slowly is good too. It is difficult to retrain yourself if you're a "bolter", but I have found that if I stop and think, I'm not even tasting food if I'm wolfing it down, which means that although I think I'm eating for pleasure, I actually miss out on the chance to really savour it.