Thanks for sharing! I have totally been there! I used to think the meetings were my anti-BED but was so guilty feeling when I would find myself bloated and stuffed yet again even though I went to a meeting. I would hate myself, feeling like I was a glotton and just wasn't trying hard enough. Truth is, if the meetings kept me abstinent there wouldn't be twelve steps, no need for a Higher power and no point in reading literature or making phone calls, or a food plan to follow, or a sponsor to contact, or...... You get what I'm saying...it is completely normal to binge even though u attended a meeting, we are compulsive overeaters. Do not feel bad or question why that happened. Remember that you were doing what you (& ur body) knows best when faced with exhaustion, kitchen, cooking (STRESS). This is a tough habit to break. It is beyond that even. It's tough to develop a new way of thinking: of acting upon life instead of reacting to it, right? Yes!!! This is a point in your recovery, believe it or not, you went to the meeting (yae!), went home and yes, you binged, but u were able to reflect and see perhaps what triggered it (not that we necessarily always need a trigger to binge(:()but its great to identify them) and you got on here and discussed it (yae!), which not only means you are trying I move on from it but also that u r not isolating or denying that it happened(big yae!). Hope u feel better! Sending lots of love! We can do this!!!!!!