BE Support Group Conversation Thread - 2014
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I am really finding the gym to be a helpful motivator. If I can get myself to go in the morning, then I have this feeling of not wanting to ruin the good work I've done. It helps me get through the day.
It also helps my mood, generally. Can't believe I have gone more in the past 3 weeks than in the prior year. Going to try and keep it up. Nothing crazy... every other day or so.
I can do this!
And they say it really helps with your memory as you grow older.0 -
me too!Glad I found this thread, I need to stop my self destructive ways!0 -
i find the weekends are very hard i doing alot better this weeked just go to keep my self busy0
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This is true for many of us for sure. I do find keeping busy and pre-planning my meals out helps, even if going out socially. Most restaurants have online sites and when in my control I pick a restaurant best for me. Think positively too.i find the weekends are very hard i doing alot better this weeked just go to keep my self busy0 -
I'VE FALLEN FACE FIRST INTO BE AGAIN. THE WEEK HAS BEEN REALLY BAD WITH FOUR DAYS WHERE I LITERALLY ATE TILL IT HURT. HAVING HAD GASTRIC BYPASS NEAR FIVE YEARS AGO, I'M SURE SOMETHING IS AWRY WITH MY ANATOMY. I SHOULD NOT HAVE BEEN ABLE TO EAT AS MUCH AS I DID ON EACH OCCASION.
YOU'VE HELPED ME ANALYZE MY BEHAVIOR AND BETTER UNDERSTAND WHY I BINGE. I KNOW WHAT SET ME OFF THIS TIME AND AT LAST I KNOW WHY I STARTED BINGE EATING WHEN I DID. IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH BEING OF "NORMAL" SIZE AND WEIGHT AGAIN AS I ONCE THOUGHT. I NEED TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO CHANGE THE WAY I HANDLE CERTAIN SITUATIONS.
I WANTED TO GO OUT TODAY ON A QUICK ERRAND. FEAR OF BUYING BINGE FOOD KEPT ME INSIDE. I'M RELIEVED THAT IT IS TOO LATE FOR ME TO ORDER IN. I PUT THE FOODS INTO MY TRACKER SO I COULD SEE THE DISASTEROUS RESULTS. IT KEPT ME FROM PICKING UP THE PHONE.
THE WEEKEND IS GOING TO BE ROUGH. IF I CAN FINISH CERTAIN THINGS BY TOMORROW, THE ANXIETY WILL CEASE AND THE URGE TO BINGE WILL GO WITH IT. THE KEY TO BEATING BE IS SELF UNDERSTANDING. I THINK? I'M GETTING THERE. I HOPE?
I REALLY DON'T MEAN TO SHOUT BUT I'M HARD OF SEEING. ;-)0 -
Hi my name is Amanda... I've binge eaten since I can remember... getting up in the middle of the night and scarfing down cookies... I had to be 7 or so. I was skinny then, and for all of my childhood. So in classic binge eating fashion, in my adulthood I've yo-yoed. I lost 70 lbs with MFP and working out... did great. But I've gained 40 back. I don't even want to leave the house. I have been in alcohol recovery for 5 months and thought that would impact my weight loss. Alas, binging has replaced the alcohol. The alcohol numbed and provoked different feelings and challenges that are totally different now. Anyways, hoping to find some inspiring stories and learn more about binge eating and also discovering more about myself.0
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BE is so complex and has so many layers. I've been really struggling the last few days. And I try to not restrict myself from certain foods and stuff, I don't know. I am going through a lot of things currently. But then again, who isn't right? I struggle with depression, isolation and anxiety, and I do well for a few days out of the week and then I lapse and I cannot talk to people around me because they don't get it. Could use to intentional support.0
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I had a rough day yesterday. I just fought it all day and eventually caved.
Back in it this morning. The only thing that matters is getting through today, not what happened yesterday.
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STILL UNDER THOSE DAMNED WAGON WHEELS ON & OFF. I'M FOCUSED ON GETTING BACK TO A DAILY WEIGH IN AND TRACKING MY FOOD. HAD I NEVER STOPPED THE FORMER I BELIEVE I WOULD NOT HAVE BECOME OBESE. HAD I NOT SLACKED OFF ON THE LATTER I WOULD NOT BE BATTLING THIS CURRENT ROUND OF REGAIN.
ENTHUSIASM? NONE AT ALL FOR WORKING OFF THE 19.4LBS I'VE GAINED OR THE EXTRA 5LBS I WANT TO LOOSE. HOWEVER, I'M GOING TO FAKE IT SO I CAN MAKE IT HAPPEN. I HAVE TO SEE EACH BINGE IN MY FOOD LOG AND THE RESULT IN MY WEIGHT GRAPH. THIS KEEPS ME COGNIZANT OF WHAT IS HOLDING ME BACK.
AS OA TAUGHT ME PROGRESS NOT PERFECTION. WHILE I'M NOT A TWELVE STEPPER I'VE LEARNED A LOT FROM THEM. UNFORTUNATELY, HEARING BINGE STORIES AT MEETINGS INCREASED MY URGE TO BINGE AND DECREASED MY STRENGTH TO RESIST BINGING. NONETHELESS I HAVE OA BOOKS THAT ARE VERY HELPFUL.
I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO SEPARATE BINGE EATING FROM MY WEIGHT. FANTASIZING ABOUT RETURNING TO MY OLD LOW CAL NO WEIGHT GAIN BINGE HABITS ARE A REGULAR THING RIGHT NOW. THIS WILL NOT HELP ME OVER THE LONG RUN BUT IT SURE WOULD HELP IN THE SHORT TERM.
I'M IN A QUANDARY WITH SCATTERBRAINED THINKING. FOR STARTERS I HAVE TO FACE THE AVOIDANCE ISSUE WHICH INVARIABLY LEADS TO BINGES. OVERWHELMED IS THE BEST DESCRIPTION OF HOW I FEEL LATELY AND BE IS HOW I VENT THIS FEELING. FACING UN PLEASANTRIES HEAD ON AS I ONCE ALWAYS DID TO WILL HELP.
THANKS ALL FOR BEING HERE AND GIVING ME A SAFE PLACE TO AIR THIS STINKY LAUNDRY OF MINE. TIME TO GET CRACKING AT MY AVOIDANCE ISSUES SO I CAN STAY ON THE WAGON INSTEAD OF UNDER IT.
ALL CAPS FOR ME CAUSE I'M HARD OF SEEING! ;-)0 -
Its been a while and gaining 10 pounds in three weeks shows I really let go, never stopped eating and drinking, better now but everything christmassy had to run out. Didn't even know I liked christmas that much x Oh well better late than never, just wish I could be normal for now will just have to work on the difference between whats full and whats obscene seems I cannot tell the difference0
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just wish I could be normal for now will just have to work on the difference between whats full and whats obscene
I'M LIVING THIS FOR TH PAST COUPLE OF WEEKS. THE HOLIDAY SEASON WAS FINE BUT NOW I'M OFF THE RAILS. OBSCENE IS THE PERFECT WORD FOR MY RECENT BEHAVIOR. HOW DO I GET TO NORMAL AND STAY THERE? I ONLY WISH THERE WAS A ONE SIZE FITS ALL ANSWER.
I'M NOT YELLING, JUST HARD OF SEING. ;-)0 -
Hi Everyone,
I hope you are all doing as okay as possible.
I'm new to posting here although I did join last month, I let things slip but am really focused at the moment.
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Welcome!Hi Everyone,
I hope you are all doing as okay as possible.
I'm new to posting here although I did join last month, I let things slip but am really focused at the moment.
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So happy I found this group! I thought I had beat the binge eating beast but after the past year I'm right back where I started. 30+ lbs heavier in one year and after yesterday it is just going to increase if I don't get some help. I decided today that I HAVE to log my food DAILY and I also opened my diary so I can be more accountable. I do, however, need some friends to help me in this. I tend to be on the shy side and stress eat terrible. I would love to help support you guys too!0
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>> "When I was done I sat and thought. I tried to really feel if I was hunger or satiated. I HAD NO IDEA. I just can't make the connection. I wonder when/if I will ever be able to know true hunger/fullness. "
Maybe it is something you'll be able to tune into over time as you continue to pay attention on a regular basis.
Sometimes I can't tell either so I just ask myself if I'm hungry and that's it. If I can't say for sure that I'm hungry then I figure I'm not! At that point I either (try to) not eat, or (try to) stop eating if I'm already in the middle of a meal.0 -
Hi everyone, I'm new to this group, but I've been a binge eater since childhood. I used to try to keep it a secret, but it's a disorder that gets really obvious to the whole world because of the weight gain. But enough about the past.
I recently came to the conclusion that I may never have a "normal" relationship with food (whatever normal is--I have no idea), but I can learn to eat the way "normal" people eat. So that's my question for myself these days---"would a normal person eat this quantity of that food?", and if the answer is no, then I don't need to do it either. I can't trust my feelings of hunger, because I've ignored them so long that I don't even know when I'm really hungry and when I just think I am.
So my goals are to stay under my calorie count, to log everything I eat, and to not have any binge foods in the house.0 -
Hello, I joined a bit ago but haven't posted before. I have lost about 90 lbs from 240-150 (5'10" M) but my binge monster has been back and rough the last few months, so I decided to make a new account and try to take off the lbs I packed on from binge eating. I'll look to this group for support and would love to provide support for other's along the way.0
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This looks like a good group for me. I have struggled with binging most of my life and in the past 2 yrs binging has been why I have gained back 20# that worked hard to lose through vigilant eating and exercise. While I believe I got to thin 2 years ago, I am hoping that by getting my binging under control I can get back down 5-10 lbs which is a healthy weight for me.
My biggest source of binging lately is eating like my husband who is a strength and conditioning coach. (Aka he eats 5,000 plus calories per day, mostly at night around me, just to try and maintain his weight). He will get late night mcdonalds or other fast food and I end up digging in too, often even after I am uncomfortably full. I try to talk to him about it and he understands, but his go to is to remind me that I am beautiful and he doesn't want me to go back to being too thin.
Hoping with help and support I can get a better hold on this and improve my relationship with food.0 -
Today is my third day binge-free! One day at a time
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I joined this group a few weeks ago, but think I'll introduce myself. Hi! My name is Paige, I've suffered from eating disorders for 3 years now. I started bingeing in August last year after following a very restrictive lifestyle (700 calories a day - no good.) But even as I started eating more and recovering, I still kept bingeing. I would "dare" myself to eat those cookies and chocolates that I'd deprived myself of for the previous 3 years. I binged tonight, I woke up 3 hours later in agony - this must have been my biggest binge. So, hopefully with a bit of support I can crack this.
Plus, hearing that some of you are also regular bingers makes me feel like less alone.0 -
the 'monster' has been back for several days now....just trying to get through today with lots of water. Dreading this evening, which is when it comes out....0
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thought i might win tonight.....apparently not :mad:0
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Thank you Molly!! I am just starting out on another journey of weight loss. I feel like I have spent my entire adult-life doing this. I tend to sabotage myself when I have made some real progress and binge again. It's incredibly frustrating and I am hoping to find some good support with this group.0
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Just found this group.
I didn't know I had a problem until a couple years ago...Binging isn't something we see in the media unless it involves purging too. There's just not a lot of information out there. So I actually didn't know this was a problem for a very long time. I mean, I knew what I was doing, secretly overeating massive amounts of calories, but it only occurred to me recently that I actually have a problem. I've tried to research it, couldn't find any information and too embarrassed to ask the doctor. I look fit, my bmi is normal, and I have this problem and no one knows, and 20 years ago I had my gall bladder removed because of it.0 -
I am a 22 year old female who weighs 7 stone, I am 5 foot 3, I have always had issues with food. I sound very thin, I am but I eat 1300 calories a day and I have a day off once a week, I trampoline when I get anxious or bored and I love walking. My problem is food makes me anxious I have apergers and the way I eat is an obsessional routine. I am not anorexic I eat chocolate but I am very picky and am lucky to have a preference for healthy food. I just find junk food flavourless but the problem is that food makes me anxious my father always says my dinners look lovely, fresh full of salsa, quoin, mushrooms and rice or egg noodles or an omelette. Besides from that I am now beginning to find food pointless, holidays or special occasions full me with dread because I feel pressured to eat so I binge to shut everyone up, the binges used to be my entire food intake at once to shut everyone up so that they would not nag at me to eat. Now I have more control but still if its like a special occasion like Easter today I binge on 4000 calories. I hate holidays because I feel anxious at the thought of food, I am just so sick of it all and want to be able to enjoy myself. I am never hungry on what I usually eat but I make myself eat when the voice in the back of my head just wants me to not to bother everything tastes flavourless even custard and chocolate which used to be my favourite food. The only thing I Taste is fresh fruit, and salsa and quoin and coffee. I used to look forward to eating my treat of chocolate but when I eat it now it tastes yuck and flat. Please tell me how to not to binge because I do not feel hungry but I hate feeling pressure from everyone.0
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I sound like such an *kitten* I just want to not be anxious0
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'Don't Quit' by Jill Wolf
Don't quit when the tide is lowest,
For it's just about to turn;
Don't quit over doubts and questions,
For there's something you may learn.
Don't quit when the night is darkest,
For it's just a while 'til dawn;
Don't quit when you've run the farthest,
For the race is almost won.
Don't quit when the hill is steepest,
For your goal is almost nigh;
Don't quit, for you're not a failure
Until you fail to try.
Hi all,
I love the poem that Molly posted in the original post on this thread. It was something I very much needed to read and think about today. I'm still on track but I am really struggling today. I think it is because I didn't sleep much last night and when my sleep is off, I tend to find that my urge to binge increases exponentially.... but I am on a 4-day clean streak at the moment and I do not want to mess it up.
I hope you don't mind me posting in here. I just wanted to get it off my chest.
Thanks
Clare :yawn: I may need a nap :yawn:0 -
Just wanted to say hi!
I have been busy the last year with a new job so I don't have much time to post. I just have time for my MFP page. I am trying a little more now.
My job is stressful and I let the Binge get out of control. I am working on it now and hope to do much better. I know I already feel better with some good healthy foods in me.
If anyone needs extra friends please friend me. I am good at supporting friends and LOVE having fellow Binge Eaters on my page. It helps a lot when people understand!!
Have a great day!
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Hello Karen,
So good to hear from you friend. Keep up the good work and continue to strive for a better tomorrow!!
Congrats on new job too! :flowerforyou:
Molly0 -
Hey guys,
Not sure where to post.
I have binge eating disorder and would love support to try and tackle this beast.
I am a diet queen. Tried everything then when binging reemerged quit.
Realised restriction can feed binging so quit doing that but no real improvement I believe it has turned into a strongly engrained habit.
Did 5:2 for 4 weeks but that is definitely not working for me and I'm not blaming the program just not compatible.
Im ranting.
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