Is it appropriate to keep a journal thread here? Or should I just keep a physical one?

Either way, today I binged like crazy. It is the day after welfare day, and as I work in fast food, it was an insanely busy day. I nearly broke down into tears while working the drive through window. I no longer take rude or mean customers personally since reading some Wayne Dyer books, so I managed to detach from a particularly insufferable woman and positive think my way back to calmness, but at soon as I reached my car at the end of my shift, I had only one destination in mind: the grocery store. I went into the "trance." I bought a bag of hickory sticks, old Dutch ketchup chips, and smart food popcorn, along with a bag of Spitz. I ate half of each bag. My face is hot and swollen and my brain feels foggy. Not only am I exhausted, but now I am sick and exhausted.

I don't know how to stop needing to escape into salty foods. I've tried meditation, exercise, making all my meals for the week and freezing them... I quit smoking a year ago and I rarely drink. I don't want any crutches. But this one won't leave me in peace.