I'm in too! I've wasted so much money on drinks and have nothing to show for it except 20lbs of extra fat around my stomach! I'm on day 4 of counting calories and not drinking.

Hi Sjtoby, I hear you on the "rewarding". I can usually go for about 8 -12 days max then I feel like I deserve a reward and go nuts and overindulge. I then get mad at myself for going off plan and throw my hands in the air and stop counting calories and start drinking again. It's a vicious cycle for me. I sometimes feel like I can't just be a "social" drinker like friends I know. I drink to get a buzz and because I have such a high tolerance I can really put away the wine and beer which has been disasterous in my 30's around my waist! Anyway, I'm taking it day by day. Today I am on day 6! I feel mentally a lot better and more in control. I even agreed to be the DD yesterday when my family went to a brewery! Boy, was that hard but I did it and feel so proud of myself today to have that control!! Good luck and friend me anyone!! I need all the support possible!