It was erotica and a literary discussion, so slightly more high brow.

Well I haven't been to bed yet. Just can't seem to fall asleep. It has however given my a couple hours to edit google maps... which is kind of sad, but at least now people will be able to find every public water fountain and bathroom.

Well I'll spend the next two days walking to warm up for sunday/fathers day 5k walk. I'll spend saturday in San Fransisco at Flax, a giant paper store, they are having a sale. Oh, and try to get some work done, clients would appreciate that. Overall just try to have a good and stable weekend.

So whats everyone else's obscure reading list? Any bigfoot material we should know about?

I'm currently reading:
Artificial Hells - Participatory art and the politics of spectatorship (i know, your jealous)
Sensorium - Embodied experience, technology, and contemporary art

Surprisingly they don't make any of these titles in audio book.

Good morning everyone!!!

Yesterday I managed to track every piece of food and beverage that passed through my lips. I was over 800 calories above my goal. It was a trial and trip up day to see what I eat on a normal day and where I can make some adjustments.

Today I am going to focus on NO sugar free sodas. The carbonation makes me want more and more and more.

I don't read many books.

To all those who responded to my depression/bipolar question, a HUGE TY!!! I am medicated. Thank goodness for meds. I just wasn't sure if anyone found certain foods helpful or detrimental. I know for me, if I have sugary foods, it sends me manic. QUICKLY. I've seen 2 nutritionists, neither have worked on the bipolar aspect and basically haven't helped. I know I have googled the information, supposedly omega 3's help stabelize you. Any fish is suppose to be a good source of protein.

Have a great day!!

Cari in DE

Morning all. Same sits here. I completely emptied out our bank account last night getting groceries to last about a week. Bad thing is we still have 17 days until payday and gas and you know life to live. Oh well. We will get by. We actually are finally having a garage sale next weekend. Hung on to a lot of baby clothes thinking we might have another...we did pass quite a few on But still have a ton left and we just need to declutter too.

Not looking forward to the work especially when I can't do it my organized way. Had we had mine, would rent tables and clothes racks to display things properly. It's all about display. Anyway. Moving on.

Food wise, pumped about the challenge. Bummed about Dads day. I didn't even get cards out this year. Ugh.

Oh books. I just finished everything by Jane Austen. Is free on Google play.

I have all of her books on my phone. Lo v e her!

Have you read Pride and Prejudice and Zombies? Download a sample... you will crack up! So well done!

Good Morning,
Well I missed the book/talk sounds like I need to catch up. Well today I checked my sugar when I woke up and it was 147. Highest its been in morning ever (I am diabetic) – I ate and then checked an hour after and it is 203. I called docs office. Needless to say
1. What do I expect since I am doing nothing to stop eating sugar – like I hate cake and unhealthy things this week
2. I am scared and it has scared me to realize I HAVE to get control.

My hands are very itchy..my fingers…I am not exercising…I guess I have just fallen off…..I have to get back on and stay on. I just got this fabulous haircut (Ill post a pic) and my birthday is coming up, Ill be 51 and I have to take care of myself. I was even thinking lap band…but that’s just a quick fix. I need to lose 50 pounds and looking at some of you all accomplishments I can do this…
So I am Debbie down under at this moment – but I will say…at my hair salon they have BUCKETS of candy everywhere – EVERYWHERE and as I walked in (cuz I normally eat the whole time I am there) I said to myself “no candy, don’t do it, not worth it, your worth, Jesus help me, I can do all things in HIS strength” and happy to say…I didn’t eat one morsel. Praise God

My goal for this weekend is to find at least one thing, preferably a handful or more, that I can pass on in some form or fashion - preferably to see a few dollars from it, as those are a seriously endangered species in my house (less than $10, and that needs to go in the gas tank, to last me over a week - and I don't have a week of groceries in the house....sigh).

Hubby and I are also experiencing EXTREME financial issues. It is so hard...especially when you want to make good choices...but can't afford the healthy stuff that you like. I just hope my husband can find a higher paying job that will help us catch up and then get ahead. I could talk all day about financial stuff so I'll just stop here.

Also, a good book for weight loss inspiration is a book called "Finally Thin." I could relate to so much of what she felt and went through.

Angie

I know I haven't checked in much lately but I've still logged everything I ate.

Somehow I'm down 7.2lbs in the past week. I don't know how but it pushed me past 20 lbs lost meaning this is now the most I've lost in one actual attempt.

I know I haven't checked in much lately but I've still logged everything I ate.

Somehow I'm down 7.2lbs in the past week. I don't know how but it pushed me past 20 lbs lost meaning this is now the most I've lost in one actual attempt.

Good job, keep up all the great work.

Well did my checkin for Heather's Birthday challenge and I am finely down bellow 300lbs and have hit my 10% loss . My calories have also gone down .

I SAW that! Woo hoo! :drinker:

Doesn't it feel good though to be in control again? I know the Karen that first started here going to her water tai chai and moving toward a goal was a happier Karen. Deep down, food is just the temporary happy that leaves you feeling depressed and emotional all week. I don't want you to beat yourself up anymore. But no more free passes. This is it. I'm tempted to make you open your diary so I can make sure you are logging young lady. I'm watching you!

Doesn't it feel good though to be in control again? I know the Karen that first started here going to her water tai chai and moving toward a goal was a happier Karen. Deep down, food is just the temporary happy that leaves you feeling depressed and emotional all week. I don't want you to beat yourself up anymore. But no more free passes. This is it. I'm tempted to make you open your diary so I can make sure you are logging young lady. I'm watching you!

Thank you, your support and accountability are great, Heather. I think my food diary is already open. I made myself open it when I started despite misgivings because I'm trying to lose the SHAME.

I'm still trying to figure out whether the chicken comes before the egg... do I get depressed by eating crap? or do I eat crap because I'm depressed? All I know is that it is tough to pull out of it. The weather here is not helping at all. Heat is back ON again. Really. I just want to be warm and sit in the sun and swim in the lake!

Tomorrow I'll rise early. And go to aqua Zumba to set the tone for the weekend. I hope everyone has FUN this weekend and finds ways to be happy that don't cost money or add unwanted calories. Hurrah for healthy alternatives!

I'll be working on my first Bigfoot sex book... Something like this: Abigail first realized she must have blacked out when she awoke with a pounding headache in an enormous pile of dried leaves and moss. "What? Where am I?" She rubbed her fingertips across her temple, feeling a tender, raised bump underneath her waves of red-gold hair. The last moments she remembered were stumbling over a tree root on her favorite solo hiking path in the White Mountains. Now... Now she seemed to be in the entrance of a cave in a pile of... no, a nest, a giant nest that smelled like damp earth and musk. "And why am I naked?"

Hahahaha... I'm not ashamed of writing nasty, hairy, Bigfoot sex scenes, but I'm full of self-loathing over a cheeseburger? Yeah. Need to let it go. That's the crazy eating disorder talking!

Hi everybody. Today I am under in my calorie goal, but my eating was not healthy and it was compulsive too.

still no exercise so I'm feeling my usual tired and sluggish. Gotta start moving my body!

I ate sugar for the first time two weeks ago. Been eating some here and there, mostly here since then. It had been a year and a half since I consumed ANY sugar at all. So, I'm scared.

I'm a compulsive overeater with no control over my eating. The only time I am able to eat healthy is when I let go of my will, and am willing and surrendered to a power greater than myself. Sound crazy? I understand...but, 55 years of insanity over food and sugar was crazy, depressing, and resulted in obesity and me not wanting to show up for life.

So, I'm glad to be here, to be using the site and the logging as an added tool to what I am already doing, and so grateful for connecting with others who struggle in ways that I certainly relate to. Thanks for letting me share.

Maryellen in Florida.

Hello my friends. This has been one crazy day. Earlier today I got a phone call from the Catholic church I took my electric bill to and thank God they were able to help me so I don't have to worry about that. And yes Heather, you're right. We will get through the financial problems. I just wish it was sooner than later. I hate being broke and having to ask for help. Today was also my day at the food pantry. Sometimes I don't know where we would be without them. We only get to go once a month but that really helps fill the gaps. Today was really good because we got a lot of produce (spinach, cucumbers, tomatoes, dried cherries, raisins, watermelon, cauliflower).

Then came the crazy. You all remember the cyst on Cody's neck? Well the new round of antibiotics that the doctor finally gave him are doing nothing. The cyst has continued to get larger and larger. I called her again today and of course no return call. When I called back the fourth time (the cyst was getting larger by the hour), I was told I was at the top of her priority list but they had no idea when she would call me. Didn't sound like priority to me and I let them know it. Finally my mom and I made the decision to take him to the ER. They cyst was almost the size of a softball. At one point they were talking about keeping him overnight for IV antibiotics or possibly even operating. Cody was panicking. He was afraid he would have to spend the night there by himself. I reassured him that would not be the case. Eventually the doctor decided to drain the infection out with a needle and prescribed new antibiotics. We go back to see him in a couple of weeks to get the actual cyst removed. This doctor even gave me his pager number in case it gets worse this weekend instead of getting better. Hopefully he's on the road to recovery but it surely wasn't the way I was planning on spending my Friday afternoon/evening. When we left, we stopped at Denny's to eat because Mom and Cody were starving to death. I made a healthy choice and got something off the Fit & Fare menu for only 330 calories. Was pretty proud that I didn't give in to all those high calorie choices out of stress. Hopefully the remainder of the weekend is calm.