This is weird because it isn't particularly an emotion I'm having problems with.

It's the concept of moderation.

I'm a very all or nothing person, and that's something I've really been trying to work on this time around when getting healthy. I can be running every single night eating nothing but veggies, or I can lounge on the couch eating a whole bag of Doritos. The middle ground that should exist for me is an unnatural and rarely visited place, but I'm trying to find it.

So when I went to my 'birthday celebration' at work today, I said, "You go ahead and eat those desserts, Katy. People make them special just for you, you took a 30 minute walk at lunch, and it's alright to live your life sweetly on occasion."

I ate one double chocolate cookie and one butterscotch blondie bar, totaling around 400 calories.

And now the emotion.

Why the heck did I eat those?! Yes they were good, but now I feel terrible and like I should just grab a sack of McDonalds on the way home from work and dismantle the treadmill. I know my progress isn't ruined, but it sure as heck isn't as good as it could be. Get it together.

Illogical? Yes. But that's just how I approach getting fit. I know this is something that won't serve me well in the long run, but I'm having the hardest time applying moderation to my daily routine.

Any advice or words of wisdom would be graciously welcomed.