I worked for two years to lose weight, myfitnesspal, lifting weights, running and other cardio. I lost about 50 pounds, and I was within 20 pounds of my target weight. Then I don't know what happened. I got tired of tracking and without the number over my head, even though I thought I could do it, I went back into my old habits. Eating really large meals, sneaking snacks all the time, eating higher calorie foods and making poor food choices. I have so much trouble stopping, and I want this to be my re-start. I am getting married in May and I don't want to do it bigger than I am now. I've gained back 30 of the 50 pounds I lost. I'm so upset about it that it fuels me to eat more. I hate it. I'm going to try to be back now. I didn't track anything today, so 2/23/15 - BACK ON THE CALORIE WAGON.