I have felt the binge around me all day. In fact I have already 'binged' today. I use the quotes because I binged on a massive amount of vegetables. Technically it is not a binge, as it was just a couple of hundred calories. But if a binge is eating to the point where I am so full that I wish I would stop, but I keep eating...then yeah - it was a binge.

So, I have to go out and the binge is with me and I'm getting worried because I can buy binge food while I'm out.
I prepare myself to be strong.

Then I remembered my post from yesterday and just thought instead of preparing for battle, I'm just not going to give the fight a chance to happen.
"I'm not going to buy binge foods"...nothing happened.

I repeat it in my head again, a bit stronger.
"I'm not going to buy binge foods"
still no change.

OK so that's not going to work again.

So I thought to myself
"I would rather be a healthy weight than eat binge food".

and the binge was gone. seriously - gone.

I haven't gone out yet so I guess it might come back, but I have a pretty good feel for when its around, and I can confidently say that its gone.

I realised that thinking about bingeing (or thinking about avoiding a binge) keeps my mind focused on the binge. and when faced with the thought of bingeing, it is very appealing, and it is difficult to resist.

But when I look at the bigger picture - ie me maintaining my weight vs me binging...well, with that frame of reference bingeing is not appealing at all.

Pudding1980 wrote: »

You're doing really well!

thank you
I hope that I can help others, too.

nice one ! and great job for getting through the urge.
I find 'unexpected' binge options a real challenge because I haven't prepared myself for them. So well done for reacting so decisively - especially at a challenging time.
I love also that you have someone that you can share it with

How fabulous that you're not tempted .

I always feel that avoiding a binge creates a habit to not binge; and that's a good thing ! It sounds like throwing away the food that your students leave behind is becoming a habit for you. That's great ! and its a habit that you could use in other parts of your life, too. If you are in another situation where there is binge food, but you can throw it away to avoid a binge. Looking at it that way, I think your students are helping you

I understand, I also don't like throwing away food. But I don't like bingeing on it, either. and when the choice is to binge on it or to throw it away then I think it is perfectly ok to throw it away. It is something that I have gotten used to, and gotten better at. Also I still work hard to avoid throwing food away under 'normal' circumstances.

Someone on the forum once explained it something like this:
"When I eat something, it still becomes waste. It doesn't help anyone to have it filtered through my digestive system and disposed of in the toilet the next day, rather than cutting me out as the middleman and tossing straight in the garbage disposal and down the pipes today. "
I really agree with that.

I could feel him there, wanting to start a binge. It wasn't the strongest he's ever been, but it was a pretty solid effort. I was holding my ground. not fighting, but not willing to give in. Aware of him and his intention.
We were eyeing each other out, before the fight would commence.

and so it continued...for over 10 hours.
I was calm, focused and determined.
I didn't allow the battle to start.

The threat only subsided when I eventually went to bed for the night.

But the good thing is that even when its a tie, I'm the winner

and today is another day.

I have wanted to binge all day, but have not.

Not a strong (stuff everything I can into my mouth) urge. Just a general sense of dissatisfaction, and an urge to eat to resolve it. (Though of course I know that eating wouldn't change anything.)

Well, I didn't binge so that's good.