You can do this. I totally understand what you are going through. I'm happy to talk.

I've been there. I'm like oh i've been good all week imma take a sip of soda. Than i drink the whole can. I'm not a sweet eater but i love hot cheetoes with a lil lemon. Now I'm back at work after staying home for 4yrs. I'm so stressed out and want to over eat. But i think of how far I've come and don't want to go back. If you feel like talking feel free to add me.

I totally understand this. I was doing awesome for 3 weeks then I had only 3 BITES of pizza and lost control. Three days later I am finally back on track. I keep telling myself one day at a time, I've done this through 100 pounds, I can do it for 25 more. I realized this will always be a struggle for me and I have to stay on top of myself.

I tell myself everyday that I am so thankful this is MY struggle; not starvation, alcoholism, or worse.

You can do this, please feel free to add me

I sabotage myself as well. I will go over on the weekends, and I will log everything. I mean I am losing inches, but not lbs. I get so frustrated. I am also an emotional eater. I find having low calorie snacks around help me feel like I'm cheating, without eating a bunch of calories. I have Jello Sugar-Free snack cups for just those occasions. I overeat with candy and not knowing when to stop.
Feel free to add me. I am available to talk...

I think the sabotage is punishment. I think I used to do it to punish my mother, who was always so obsessed about my weight. Then It kind of a "screw it" mentality when I am stredded or things aren't going my way, or especially when I am am angry. But I finally realized in my SOUL that the only person I am hurting is myself.

That said, I have days when I am just HUNGRY. Or days when I am out that I just want to enjoy myself. I will eat more, but I ALWAYS log it. When I log it, I can see what I am doing (so can my friends) even though it can be embarrassing and discouraging. It helps to keep me in check, because It's hard to sneak when you are boing honest with yourself.

I know what to blame if the weight loss is slowing. I hate to see those big RED numbers. I counter them with trying to eat a little less for several days in a row, so my average calorie intake for the week is still good

makeitnasty184 wrote: »

I am ready to wreck my diet today for no other reason than boredom. I'm not stressed or anxious. I've had a really good week eating nutritiously and exercising. But right now I just want to eat pizza. Like a whole one. I'm about to go to a yoga class and hopefully I'll feel better after.
I know breaking right now will only make me feel guilty after and will ruin the progress I've made trying to get back on track but my compulsion feels so much stronger than my will power I know it will get easier as days and weeks go by but right now it feels impossible.

I hope you made it. Those compulsions are so hard to fight,

ahealthiercara wrote: »

I've been there, I've just historically kept it to myself so kudos to you for fessing up and continuing to log even though you're going over. You can do this - see if you take a walk or do some other exercise instead of eating when you're stressed?

Thank you for the advice, that is exactly what I did, and I did feel better. Are you logging now when you go over? I hate looking at the reports later though, makes me almost not want to be honest about it. Thinking about restarting again after my exam. I booked Friday off of work, so I am going to have a me day.

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I do my best to log accurately even when I go over. I will admit there have been a couple times when I left things off because it was too hard to look at. I often exercise more that day to try and compensate. When my weight loss stalls I can point to exactly why - no one's fault but my own. But its ok. I have good days and bad days but it feels like such a huge victory to be below 200 that as long as I'm maintaining right now I feel OK about it. I feel like I need time to adjust mentally/emotionally - that shows up as more binging than usual lately. I'm being kind to myself through the process knowing as long as I keep making the effort I will get back on track.