Confessions of a Fat Fu$k!
daylitemag
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So, I've been very good since starting on my new WOE back on Oct 13. Today, was a complete train wreck. I went to a football game and got rather drunk. Still not exactly "sober". Anyway, I'm sure I've eaten at least 3000 calories including some beer. My Carb count is threw the roof and I feel like *kitten*. Sorry, to unload here, but this is the only place I can confess my sins. No one needs to reply to this thread, but I know you've all been here and can relate. I can't wait until tomorrow when I can get back on track. I hate myself right now - not for the first time...not even close. I hope you all are having a better day than I am (couldn't be worse, unless you are a professional hot dog eater).
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One day isn't the end of the world. Even if every calorie over maintenance went right to fat, you'll have set yourself back way less than a pound. Just get right back on the horse tomorrow. You can do this.0
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thanks those are wise words @FIT_Goat
I know this will be just a blip
blibOne day isn't the end of the world. Even if every calorie over maintenance went right to fat, you'll have set yourself back way less than a pound. Just get right back on the horse tomorrow. You can do this.
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we can't be 100% perfect, 100% of the time.0
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One day isn't the end of the world. Even if every calorie over maintenance went right to fat, you'll have set yourself back way less than a pound. Just get right back on the horse tomorrow. You can do this.
Truth
We've all done this. We're human. And those carbs sing to us. They sometimes fight dirty.
As long as you pick yourself up and get right back at it, you're doing alright. We learn lessons from our stumbles, things about food (and our relationship with it) and things about ourselves as people.
And we get back up to fight another round. You're in good company.
I did my last screw-up about a week ago. I was an idiot. I'd say I had a good 3000 cal myself. I don't even want to talk about the carbs, but they were bad. I learned some things about myself, got up that Sunday morning and was back to business, applying those lessons.
I always tell myself: No guilt, but no excuses. So I laced up those gloves and got back in the ring. Ain't got no time to keep smacking myself for mistakes made and over. It's done, but I'm not done fighting.
Tomorrow is another day. Make it a good one.
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Just all of that ^^^.
We all screw up somehow, even unintentionally. That's ok. "Tomorrow is another day. Make it a good one."0 -
I've fallen off the wagon plenty of times. I like the "no guilt but no excuses" approach.0
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Oh yes. Been there. I am there. I just finished a bowl of cacao, whipping cream and coconut shreds after eating shrimp, roast, veggies, nuts and abit of bread for dinner. That was just dinner....
Tomorrow is a another day. I didn't gain it all by pigging out every single day and I won't lose it all by eating under a deficit everyday. A little bit of wiggle room is fine as long as one is on track most of the time.
... and for punishment, I am pretty sure my body will gift me with some bloat, a headache, fatigue and carb cravings tomorrow, so I won;t beat myself up over it. KWIM?
Here's to tomorrow.
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Hope you feel better today @daylitemag ! For me, alcohol means I make a LOT worse choices.... like having more alcohol! Then I think...well, one bar of chocolate won't hurt me...Hmmmm....
We've definitely all done it. Tactics to get back on track:
Exercise - definitely. It makes you feel a bit more in control of things and helps burn off some of the carbs.
Fasting - probably not. I wouldn't go straight to a fast from a carb binge as carbs make hunger less manageable. I would eat loads of keto foods, to help convince myself I don't need carbs (all the delicious fat) and then transition back into low carb, and then maybe stick in a fast a week later to undo the binging.
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Um I just had some Ben & Jerry's ice cream. But it was so good. Will hate it that I'm not in ketosis tomorrow morning though.
And the rest of the tub is still in the freezer.
(But in the past I would eat the whole tub in one sitting)0 -
daylitemag wrote: »My Carb count is threw the roof and I feel like *****
That is punishment enough. Especially those in ketosis, carbing out can from what I have heard make one feel bad.
I personally think you are going to do fine and you are going to succeed. Don't be so hard on yourself.
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Thank you, everyone, for the kind words of encouragement. It is quite humbling, actually, to know that people you hardly know can relate to your life so intimately. Today is a new day, I don't feel too bad. I'm right back on track this morning, having had my usual Keto breakfast, and I have a good week of meals planned.
I like @baconslave 's line, "No guilt, No excuses" - that really resonates and I'm going to adopt it for myself. I had fun yesterday. Our team won the Eastern Conference finals and are heading to the Grey Cup. now it's back at it0 -
This weekend I had biscuits and some of my son's fluffy pancakes. I felt guilty especially since I'm still so new to this woe and I'm constantly fighting these stupid carb cravings. I wanted a bowl of sugary cereal SO bad last night, and I was on the verge of getting a big bowl but managed to convince myself so stay away. It's exhausting! I'm hoping I can manage to get on track to be more consistent. Thanks for your post and helping us newbies out.0
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Is that the Ottawa Redblacks? A friend of mine from college plays for them--Moton Hopkins (#95).daylitemag wrote: »Our team won the Eastern Conference finals and are heading to the Grey Cup. now it's back at it
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ceciliaslater wrote: »
Is that the Ottawa Redblacks? A friend of mine from college plays for them--Moton Hopkins (#95).daylitemag wrote: »Our team won the Eastern Conference finals and are heading to the Grey Cup. now it's back at it
Wow! That's pretty cool. Yes, I live in Ottawa within walking distance of the stadium. Sunday was a picture perfect day for a football game and our team won! Now it's off to the Grey Cup next weekend. Can't believe this is only the second year that the franchise has existed (in it's current incarnation). Go RedBlacks!!0 -
noclady1995 wrote: »This weekend I had biscuits and some of my son's fluffy pancakes. I felt guilty especially since I'm still so new to this woe and I'm constantly fighting these stupid carb cravings. I wanted a bowl of sugary cereal SO bad last night, and I was on the verge of getting a big bowl but managed to convince myself so stay away. It's exhausting! I'm hoping I can manage to get on track to be more consistent. Thanks for your post and helping us newbies out.
Trust me, I know EXACTLY how you feel. Everyday is a battle to avoid eating poorly. The temptation to eat the things I have always eaten is constant. I wish I had some magic advice to share to help you through the tough days. All you can do is your best, and celebrate the fact you did NOT eat that bowl of cereal. That is a small but real victory. Every uneaten bowl of cereal, or ice cream, or whatever is a victory. For me the evenings have often been a dangerous time. It really boils down to eating out of boredom. Try to make sure you eat enough protein and fat at dinner so you aren't hungry and then if you really feel like eating something before bed try to make it Keto friendly. I will some times allow myself 15g of peanuts and wash it down with a club soda/lemon wedge. I find that a large glass filled with ice, club soda and lemon is a great refreshing drink. I will have that with some nuts or 1/2 cup of blackberries (if I want something a bit sweet). To get even more specific I will chew on the ice cubes and I find that gives me something to do while watching TV. Basically anything to avoid ice cream/chip/cookies etc.0 -
Ugh. Calgary was such an embarrassment. I had to turn it off in the third quarter. What was it? Five fumbles? Boo.
Even though it will be the Eskimos going to the Cup, I'm going to have to cheer West. I just could never cheer for the East...
My dad has his name on the Grey Cup from 71. it would be wrong to cheer on the East in my house. 
...And I still keep wanting to call Ottawa the Senators. Lol0 -
Ugh. Calgary was such an embarrassment. I had to turn it off in the third quarter. What was it? Five fumbles? Boo.
Even though it will be the Eskimos going to the Cup, I'm going to have to cheer West. I just could never cheer for the East...
My dad has his name on the Grey Cup from 71. it would be wrong to cheer on the East in my house.
...And I still keep wanting to call Ottawa the Senators. Lol
Hahaha! For sure you have to cheer for the West if your Dad's name is on the cup! That is just too cool for school!0 -
Oh hun trust me, I know. Last year I was good (no cheats) for 9 months. At Xmas I thought "it's only one day, I'm just going to eat what I want". Mid March, after gaining 14kg, I managed to stop. So now it's been 9 months this year with no cheats, and I've only lost 11kg of the 14kg I gained in those three months. And Xmas is just around the corner and I'm scared to death.0
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A nice blast of hardcore cardio will get you back In the game in less than 48 hours! Cheers!0
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EbonyDahlia wrote: »Oh hun trust me, I know. Last year I was good (no cheats) for 9 months. At Xmas I thought "it's only one day, I'm just going to eat what I want". Mid March, after gaining 14kg, I managed to stop. So now it's been 9 months this year with no cheats, and I've only lost 11kg of the 14kg I gained in those three months. And Xmas is just around the corner and I'm scared to death.
I know that feeling well
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Thought I would give one last update and then leave this ugly chapter behind me. It turns out that as bad as that day was I am still in Keto! At least according to the dark purple stick thing0
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When I used to smoke, it was a habit... and that habit was not broken by not smoking for one day.
The same logic applies here.
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We all fall off the wagon at times. I agree though, at least for me, my body punishes me enough without my mind beating me up. The great thing about Keto is once you are adapted it's super easy to restart and be right back in the game.
I too make really bad choices when too much alcohol is involved...keep calm and keto on.0 -
For me personally, I always say that guilt is worse than any calorie or carb. It can influence our thoughts and choices just as much as alcohol. Accept your choice and move on. Work on making the next choice the better one. Not BEST - no one can keep that up forever, but we can make a better choice more often than not. Also, I maintain that we fight like heck so much so that when we have these blips on the radar, they are just that - blips. We live life, then we get back on plan.
For the record, I just had a ridiculously insane carb fest for 10 whole days, fully planned, and today is day 4 back at keto levels. I can't even begin to estimate the offplannedness. And today, cool... So just remember, we did not get fat overnight, in one crazy day, in one crazy meal, in one crazy month, even. Focus on forgiving and moving on...
Life happens - most of us are in this for the long haul, for life and health, and we know our bodies will mess with us all along the way. As long as you continue to come back swinging, you'll get where you're going - when it's your time to be there. Hope you're doing great by now!0 -
KnitOrMiss wrote: »For me personally, I always say that guilt is worse than any calorie or carb. It can influence our thoughts and choices just as much as alcohol. Accept your choice and move on. Work on making the next choice the better one. Not BEST - no one can keep that up forever, but we can make a better choice more often than not. Also, I maintain that we fight like heck so much so that when we have these blips on the radar, they are just that - blips. We live life, then we get back on plan.
For the record, I just had a ridiculously insane carb fest for 10 whole days, fully planned, and today is day 4 back at keto levels. I can't even begin to estimate the offplannedness. And today, cool... So just remember, we did not get fat overnight, in one crazy day, in one crazy meal, in one crazy month, even. Focus on forgiving and moving on...
Life happens - most of us are in this for the long haul, for life and health, and we know our bodies will mess with us all along the way. As long as you continue to come back swinging, you'll get where you're going - when it's your time to be there. Hope you're doing great by now!
Gre at words of encouragement! It was indeed a one day blip. I got right back the next day. As of this morning I am down 25lbs in 6 weeks and I am feeling great. So0 -
Just curious if and how much weight with that mini break?KnitOrMiss wrote: »For me personally, I always say that guilt is worse than any calorie or carb. It can influence our thoughts and choices just as much as alcohol. Accept your choice and move on. Work on making the next choice the better one. Not BEST - no one can keep that up forever, but we can make a better choice more often than not. Also, I maintain that we fight like heck so much so that when we have these blips on the radar, they are just that - blips. We live life, then we get back on plan.
For the record, I just had a ridiculously insane carb fest for 10 whole days, fully planned, and today is day 4 back at keto levels. I can't even begin to estimate the offplannedness. And today, cool... So just remember, we did not get fat overnight, in one crazy day, in one crazy meal, in one crazy month, even. Focus on forgiving and moving on...
Life happens - most of us are in this for the long haul, for life and health, and we know our bodies will mess with us all along the way. As long as you continue to come back swinging, you'll get where you're going - when it's your time to be there. Hope you're doing great by now!0 -
vazquezmom7 wrote: »
Just curious if and how much weight with that mini break?KnitOrMiss wrote: »For me personally, I always say that guilt is worse than any calorie or carb. It can influence our thoughts and choices just as much as alcohol. Accept your choice and move on. Work on making the next choice the better one. Not BEST - no one can keep that up forever, but we can make a better choice more often than not. Also, I maintain that we fight like heck so much so that when we have these blips on the radar, they are just that - blips. We live life, then we get back on plan.
For the record, I just had a ridiculously insane carb fest for 10 whole days, fully planned, and today is day 4 back at keto levels. I can't even begin to estimate the offplannedness. And today, cool... So just remember, we did not get fat overnight, in one crazy day, in one crazy meal, in one crazy month, even. Focus on forgiving and moving on...
Life happens - most of us are in this for the long haul, for life and health, and we know our bodies will mess with us all along the way. As long as you continue to come back swinging, you'll get where you're going - when it's your time to be there. Hope you're doing great by now!
I gained just shy of 10 pounds in 10 days. I'm already back down almost 5 of it today.
11/16/15, I was 244.2 (I was at this weight consistently for about several days before/after this)
11/30/15, I was 253.6
A gain of 9.4 pounds
This morning, 12/3/15, I was 248.8, down 4.8 pounds.
4.6 pounds to go to get back to my pre-offplan weight.
EDITED TO ALL: I did not grow out of my current pants size. I had to loosen undergarments and straps some, but I didn't have to change sizes in anything with that ten pounds.0 -
Don't beat yourself up, falling off is part of the journey. Like everyone before me said, we've all been there. The main thing is that you don't give up, whether it takes a day, week or a month to get back on track.0
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