My name is Danielle and I'm a college student and marathon runner. I lost about 40 points when I started running in high school and ate very healthy for the next few years. Freshman year of college I gained the "freshman 15" then lost it the following summer as I trained for a marathon.i ran my first marathon in a time of 3:32, qualifying me for this years Boston Marathon (~60 days away). Following the marathon I developed an injury, then turned to binge eating for emotional reasons and due to the fact I was up not eating as much as I should have been. Since qualifying for Boston I have had about 7 different injuries and become pretty depressed from the lack of running. I've gained about 30 pounds, and am absolutely terrified that my ultimate goal race is in 60 days and I'm heavier than ever and can't seem to control what I eat at all.

Hi, I'm Lindsay and I am going through a daily struggle of anxiety and binge eating. I'm also a runner and exercise to burn off all the extra calories I take in. I weigh around 140 and get so angry with myself to wake up and find I've gained even the smallest number of lbs. I also dislike the way I feel. I've been secretly going through this for about a year and just this week spoke to my doctor about it. She changed me from lexapro to zoloft because she believes it's all anxiety related. I'm just waiting to see if it improves. I just want to be able to talk to those who have the same negative feelings and see what they do to cope.

Hey, y'all. My name is Kelly. I just turned 47, and I have been binge eating since childhood. My earliest memory of it was being told that while everybody else could have seconds of ice cream, I couldn't because I was getting too porky. I remember standing in the kitchen crying and making the decision that when I grew up, I would eat anything I wanted and as much as I wanted.

I look back at pictures and do not see a fat girl. In fact, in 1975, I won a beauty pageant. But my grandmother (an army nurse) always had me on diets. The rice diet, the egg & grapefruit diets, the boiled fish diet....

When she died, I lived with my mother and older brother, both of whom were alcoholics. Mom was a morose, sad drunk. Brother was belligerent and violent. We lived in squalor and poverty. Food was always the only thing that there was enough of. I ate and lived out of control and unsupervised from age 12 until about age 17. I don't have any photos of myself from those years, so no clue if I really was fat or not. My wonderful brother constantly told me how fat, stupid, and ugly I was, so that is what I believed about myself and I still do.

I somehow married a wonderful guy. I have a sweet twelve year old daughter who I love. I have two jobs that I love, two dogs, a church family and circle of friends who love and support me. But I still binge.

I began 2014 at (I am guesstimating) 300+ pounds. I got the binging under control and joined a gym! I love exercising! I lost down to 190 pounds and plateaued. Then I was triggered over the summer. Still, I held on and maintained until the holidays hit. Between Dec and the end of January, I jumped back up to 225.

I am now at 210. I can control the binging for a few days to a week and then something happens. This weekend, doughnuts were brought into my house. Not by me.

In the past two years, I have regained my life. I've been a part of my family's life rather that being apart from it. We've gone hiking, biking, roller skating, and done all of the active, fun things that families do together. I feel like I have gotten my life back in the last two years. And now I am seeing it slowly slip away again.

How do I stop this craziness? How do I keep living. I can't go back.

Thanks for putting this together. I was diagnosed with BED about 6 years ago and it continues to be a battle with every emotional struggle. I have been binge free for about 2 months after starting keto and opening up to some close friends about my disorder. This is the first time I've joined a group or introduced myself in this way-- but for some reason feel empowered to do so tonight. Here for anyone who needs a partner/support system. ❤️

Hey I'm Michelle and I've been diagnosed with EDNOS since I was 16. I've struggled with an eating disorder since I can remember and I've been through treatments for it as well. I have patterns of severe restricting followed by intense binges on and off throughout my weeks even months. Literally I'm all over the place. I'm a college student so stress is a huge trigger, not to mention my sleeping patterns are of the wall. Most people know me to be an extremely healthy person because I've been trying really hard to keep a balance and eat like a normal person, but it's very very hard. I've gotten much better with my habits but some days are really rough still. I find it hard to control myself around most unhealthy foods, especially sweets. Fast food used to be a huge binge food for me but for the last year I have made it a point to cut that out of my diet (baby steps!). Now it's group gatherings, parties and outings where I have the most trouble, along with night time cravings <--- can't handle those. Anyway I'm here for support maybe it'll be helpful.

I'm Liz. I have had a life long battle with depression and binge eating. I was taught to be ashamed of how much I ate from pretty early on, and that started a lifelong unhealthy relationship with food. I ate "normal" in public (basically tiny portions so as not to "seem like a pig") and then binged in secret. In my teen years I exercised enough to keep the weight at bay, but in my twenties, as my untreated depression worsened, so did my binges. Now in my late 30's, I got incredibly close to 300 lbs recently. I'm trying to get this under control. I don't binge nearly as often as I used to, but when I do, it's ugly.

I'm here to confess to people who understand and hopefully learn how to gain control of this. I had an ugly episode this weekend and I'm so ashamed, but I'm also just exhausted with this whole cycle.

Thanks for all the welcomes! I am interested in having some friends if anyone is interested Not sure how this really works on this site.........

Hello everyone, I am new here.. And I need help. I am 19 years old girl with a eating disorder I don't know how to help myself and how to start eating properly again... I am losing a lot of weight since las year... I feel really like *kitten* lately...I don't know what to do...can please..anyone...give some advice... or msg me.. I would really be thankfull for it

Yes, I would really love to share it. can I contact you somehow??

It’s occurred to me I never posted here… so here we go.

My name is Laura, and I’m 43 years old. I was anorexic in my teens and early twenties, and that changed over to binge eating disorder after I graduated college. I’ve been dealing with the BED on and off ever since, and watching my weight go up and up and up. I hit my highest weight at 255, which is when I decided I needed to do something. That’s when I joined the gym at my work building. The trainer there recommended I use MFP to track my calories as an additional weight loss tool. That was in mid-January 2016, and since then I’ve been able to drop 18 pounds.

My biggest binge trigger is waking up in the middle of the night. For some reason, when this happens my brain thinks it’s the best idea EVER to go and eat the entire kitchen. I’m literally on auto-pilot; I have zero control when this happens. It’s baffling to me. I can go to bed thinking “I will NOT EAT when I wake up in the middle of the night!” but all that good thinking goes out the window once I do wake up. It’s the most frustrating thing.

I told my doctor about these night-time binge episodes, and his initial reaction was to treat me with a sleeping medication so that I don’t wake up in the first place. He prescribed Lunesta, which has been a huge help in controlling my middle-of-the-night waking. And since I’m not waking up, I can’t go eat. On the nights I don’t take the meds, I do still wake up and want to go eat. I’ve stopped keeping binge foods in the house, so that when this happens I will have nothing to binge on. I may eat a small amount, but generally my binging is under control for the first time in forever.

I joined this group because I want to help others with BED. I’ve been dealing with it my whole adult life; I know what it’s like and what’s going through your head when you binge. I know all about it.

Nice to meet you all!

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Hi, I'm Elizabeth Maryam. I've dealt with Ed's since I was around 11 (earlier probably) and have dealt with anorexia as a child, teen and adult. During my adulthood I have had long periods where I have done well. When my blood pressure skyrocketed when I was around 44, I wasn't allowed to do anything and my weight skyrocketed and that would be when I would say I lost control (BED) of being able to eat minimal or a reasonable amount of food. (My bp is now normal). I put on over 80 lbs during the 8 months my bp was extremely high. At present, I struggle between either eating too much or too little. I had radiation and surgery for my thyroid, and my resulting hypothyroidism is not managed well with meds. Overall, I would say my eating issues are linked to stress (of various sources) and abuse. More recently my mum passed away 5 weeks ago and my son is suicidal and there are many many other factors that are affecting our quality of life and basic life needs... so I'm trying to just do the best I can. We are not sure if we can get through this. I know for me, food and nutrition affects all the other areas or my life, in particular my ability to cope (I also have severe hypoglycemia), so I am trying to get back on track and to get to a healthy weight... which is difficult when you have an issue with control/lack of control. It's moreso on the BED end of things. Thanks, Elizabeth Maryam

Welcome to our little hole in the MFP wall.

You have certainly got a lot on you! So many stressers and pressures! I wish I could swoop down and make it all better.

Make yourself at home here. This is a safe place.