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First treatment session was this afternoon. The woman was super nice and it felt good to talk about things, didn't get to talk a whole lot about what is currently going on because we were discussing a lot of history and things. Wasn't a super helpful session for me and I'm a bit skeptical if it will work for me. Came home from the appointment to find that my dad, who was watching my daughter, didn't put her down for her nap so now I'm dealing with an overtired 2 year old who is screaming her head off. Even though I shouldn't be angry at my dad, I am and now I am bingeing and crying because I'm losing hope.
My suggestion when you go back to see the therapist again is to attempt to take a touch of control, if you don't like the method / pace she's using. Here's why I say this.... because, if you're anything like me, and you don't consider 'dwelling' or 'revisiting' the past as an effective method of altering your future, then you're not going to feel like discussing history is beneficial to you. I'm the kinda guy who feels like the past is the past, and the 'reason' I am the way I am is irrelevant, and the only issue is how to 'fix' me now. That's what I"m reading from what you've said. If I'm mistaken, please just bin this advice. But, if you know that discussing your past isn't the best way to start changing your future, I'd be inclined to try to stop the therapist from going down that road.
That is totally my 2 cents worth Canadian... which, because we have eliminated the penny, is rounded off to $0.00.
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First treatment session was this afternoon. The woman was super nice and it felt good to talk about things, didn't get to talk a whole lot about what is currently going on because we were discussing a lot of history and things. Wasn't a super helpful session for me and I'm a bit skeptical if it will work for me. Came home from the appointment to find that my dad, who was watching my daughter, didn't put her down for her nap so now I'm dealing with an overtired 2 year old who is screaming her head off. Even though I shouldn't be angry at my dad, I am and now I am bingeing and crying because I'm losing hope.
I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling skeptical. I REALLY hope that it works for you. To me this session sounds more like it may have been an intake assessment though? They usually have at least one of those eith every person you speak with (so redundant!) before things get going. But like sloth said, different styles work for everyone. Don't I've up too soon( give it a chance and if you find its useless, express that to the person before you stop going. You can do this!0 -
First sessions with a new therapist are pretty much always a history thing. The therapist does it so he/she can get an idea of your situation. It'll get better... hang in there.0
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Sloth is correct. I really don't feel like reliving my past is going to help at this time, I understand that it is a process and that is part of their way of trying to figure things out though. If I continue to feel like the sessions are going nowhere, I will definately speak up. It's a waste of both of our time if it's not helping me. Her only suggestion at this appointment was that give up calorie counting and weight loss right now and focus on eating real unprocessed foods and trying to maintain my current weight.0
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@msty112: Don't give up! Don't quit! I am well acquainted with the workings of an over tired two year old. I work in a preschool. I know it's frustrating, stressful, and it can crank your anxiety WAY over the limit. Deep breaths and go with the flow.
With the therapy, give it time. It's not an easy fix. It may seem like a waste of time the first few visits, but it's SO not! Stay with it.0 -
I think I've probably mentioned this, but for the last month and a half or so I've been seeing the eating disorder specialist team at NYU which consists of a primary care doctor, therapist, psychiatrist, and nutritionist. They've all been urging me to consider a "higher level of care," specifically either intensive outpatient (IOP) or partial hospitalization (PHP). Yesterday I had an assessment at an eating disorder treatment center that offers both of those. We still have to get the insurance stuff worked out, and I kind of doubt that I will follow through especially since this bingeing cycle seems to be ending. As messed up as it is, I know that it will be followed by a restrictive cycle in which I will lose weight very quickly. Because of all I've gained, I don't want anything to interfere with the restriction and I feel like I would rather "get help" when I am bingeing only, or at least first. But I also realize it's a self-perpetuating cycle.
Anyway, I will hear the results/recommendations from yesterday soon. I don't really know how I feel about all of this. Both IOP and PHP are very intense, and I can't imagine going through it all again, especially at this age and point in my life. I know it's probably for the best, especially given the fact that I've had an eating disorder in some shape or form for at least 14-15 years, and struggled with disordered eating habits and irrational thoughts regarding food much further back. But it just feels like such a setback.0 -
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I had a really good second session today. We really got down to business and talking about my episodes. Came up with a couple ways to relieve my stress when I'm feeling the need to binge. I've realized that when I am in a binging mood, I can't eat even one bite of anything, nothing. One bite, one cookie, one chip always leads to more and more. I need to stay away from any food until I can get myself out of the binge mentality. She also posed a very thought provoking question to me in "do you think you binge to punish your body because in your mind it's not working properly since you are struggling with fertility?" I think she hit the nail on the head there. My binging did start when we started trying to conceive. This session definately gave me some hope and some serious things to think about. Also, she did give me an adult coloring book to try lol!0
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I had a really good second session today. We really got down to business and talking about my episodes. Came up with a couple ways to relieve my stress when I'm feeling the need to binge. I've realized that when I am in a binging mood, I can't eat even one bite of anything, nothing. One bite, one cookie, one chip always leads to more and more. I need to stay away from any food until I can get myself out of the binge mentality. She also posed a very thought provoking question to me in "do you think you binge to punish your body because in your mind it's not working properly since you are struggling with fertility?" I think she hit the nail on the head there. My binging did start when we started trying to conceive. This session definately gave me some hope and some serious things to think about. Also, she did give me an adult coloring book to try lol!
I am so happy to hear you had a better experience this time!!!0 -
I've officially made the commitment and will start PHP at the end of the month.0
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Thanks everyone, I appreciate the support! I am glad I officially made the commitment and that they're no more backing down, as I can feel myself talking myself out of it. And it seems to have triggered my next binge cycle already so the timing will be good.0
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