I am still here, was back to zombie state yesterday and today after having felt a bit better saterday. Been very unwell with gastric issues recently. I think because I was angelic for a few weeks then fell off wagon when mood crashed, the contrast drove my IBS to mega flare up, that or I have food poisoning. I still managed to gain 18lb over last few weeks 292 being lowest number I saw in good spell and 310 being the number I saw yesterday despite severe gastric upset. I do think a lot of that is fluid from inflammation. I am my own worst enemy when bipolar depressions strike. On plus side it will fall back off fast again when recover. My goal is to finish the month near to where I was at start of month. Sadly this is so often the nature of weight loss efforts. On a positive note I am still smaller than I was few months ago. For me it is a very up and down path. One day I might learn. Must live in hope. I totally sympathise with all who fall of the wagon. I am so far from perfect. Must make the most of it in the good times as if I did not keep trying again I am certain I would be unable to stand by now. Up and down weight loss is still better than up and up without the downs. Battles are won and lost but no surrender.