Hello everyone, I'm David. I've been dealing with eating disorders for almost 6 years now. I was anorexic for a short while before it turning into bulimia. I had lost about 40lbs at the time and at a normal weight for the first time, because of this my self-confidence soared and I enrolled in college. My purging (by means of exercise) stopped since I was busy with school and slowly BED started, my self confidence grumbled, I started skipping classes then dropping out altogether. I gained all the weight I lost within the next year and over the next 4 years gained 60lbs. I've tried a few ways of trying to control my eating habits but nothing really sticked, I did start weight training two days ago and so far my eating is gotten much better, so I'm have my fingers crossed.

Completely forgot about groups on here so decided to search for any support groups for BED/eating disorders so here I am. Feel free to add me as a friend, I'll do my best to try to help anyone out with getting better.

Hi I'm Suzanne, I'm 43 and have struggled with my body image and disordered eating for as long as I can remember. I have been given a diagnosis of Bulimia, but I typically don't have a binge prior to purging. I was able to get to my lowest weight (119 lbs, 5'7") about 3 years ago and I'm determined to get there again.

I was wondering tonight, am I ever going to be able to accept my body? Recently my purging has decreased, but I think it's because I've been so careful with calorie counting and exercising. I noticed I become anxious on my rest days. When I do over eat (what I perceive as over eating), I can't stand myself, I feel like I've ruined everything (re: progress I've made), and I vow to not let it happen again. But it does.

I'm here if anyone would like support. I know that this is not a healthy way to live.

@mweckler ,well, I am originally from Latvia, just recently moved to the UK, so I hope that I will find some help. I don't have full healthcare coverage here, so, for now, I can look for some support group, have been thinking about OA, as I've found that they have a group in London.

I have been lurking here for awhile, but finally got the courage to post here. I have not been diagnosed by a professional, but I am quite sure that I suffer from BED.

I am 25 years old and I have been struggling with this disorder since I was 15 or 16 years old. I have always been a relatively healthy weight but in high school I began restricting and purging for a short period which led to binging. The purging went away and the restrictive behaviors diminished, but the binging remained. I will admit that my BED is soooo much better than it was in high school. I used to binge every single night and go to school feeling like crap. Now my binges are more infrequent and much less intense (although I feel like more recently my binges are pretty big where I feel so sick and full after they end). But it still stresses me out that these behaviors remain. Now, on average I usually binge once a week and I definitely overeat from bordem and stress.

I am proud of myself for getting this disorder relatively under control, but I really want to be free of it completely. Some days I have no urges whatsoever and others I just can't stop eating. I also feel like I'm just constantly thinking about food, which is very annoying. I do not have problems with my weight, but I feel like that's because I'm still young and have a very active life which counteracts the binging. As I get older and my metabolism changes this probably will not be the case.

I am currently focusing on trying to make my relationship with food a healthy one. This means I am allowing myself to eat what I want and practicing intuitive eating. I am trying to eat my food more mindfully, drink more water, and pick up exercise for its health benefits.

I am a super private person so posting this makes me quite nervous. But I have read all the posts here and everyone's story and it makes me feel good to know I am not alone. I can relate to so many of these stories. I hope that opening up to others will help me continue to fight this disorder.

Cheers!

Hello everyone,
My name is Bettina, I'm 42 and a stay-at-home-mother of two children.
My BED started at a very early age, because my mother was constantly trying to lose weight when I grew up and like me, she was struggling with a vicious circle of restricting and bingeing.
I remember that I used to be able to have sweets in my room and eat only little amounts every now and then, but then my parents started to go out in the evenings, leaving my sister and me at home for two hours tops, and us to do the only thing we weren't allowed at that time: eating too many sweets.
I don't want to blame my parents here, it might have happened anyway, some way or other, but that's when it started.

I'm quite heavy set, with a BMI of 23 still in a healthy range but since there is an aesthetic pressure towards being slim, I'm always trying to get rid of some weight.
In the past, I managed to lose 15 kg by running a lot and eating a low carb diet, but it was too much pressure and too few calories to keep up for too long. And of course, I restricted for too long not to get the urge to make up for all these lost calories again.

One of my biggest challenges and at the same time biggest advantages is that I am allergic to wheat. It became a second nature to decline cakes and sweet things in public and to make healthy choices. This way it mostly feels like a blessing, because I know that I feel better after eating some fruit than after a highly processed regular cookie. For my family, I buy these things, fully aware that they are for them and not for me and often, when it comes to have a cup of tea with a cookie, I just sit there with my tea. Mostly I don't mind, but there are times when I feel sorry for myself, that I deserve a treat and start to raid the cabinets. And this is where things become dangerous, because when nothing is there, I eat the "forbidden" cookie or the crispy chocolate, that was supposed to be safe from me....

I know that I should treat myself regularly with something nice, not too much, but something I enjoy to not feel deprived and this is why I want to log my meals with this app again every day. Plan my meals, make time for them and for treats and give myself permission to enjoy the things that I really like - and that are good for me.
I hope that by writing this and finding like minded people, this can finally happen.

Thanks for adding me to this group!

Hola. I'm Christina & am losing the battle with my binge eating disorder. Growing up my movie star beautiful parents were obsessed with food. At one point, my dad had manorexia. Every single bite of food that I took was scrutinized, evaluated, and analyzed. My bite was too big, I was chewing incorrectly, I was eating too much, I was going to become fat. Even though I wasn't overweight, I was put on a diet at age 12. My father would make faces at me whenever he would see me eating--blowing his cheeks up with air to imply that I was going to be fat. As a child I dreamed of a paradise in which my bedroom was full to the very top of the ceiling with food. I would be able to eat whatever I wanted. The beginning of a life long binge eating disorder that has now taken me to a weight of 381 pounds. I am now 53 years old and at ROCK BOTTOM. I spend my days crying and dreading going out into the world. A few months ago I was at CVS. As I was walking in, an attractive man, probably in his 30's, was passing me, stopped, and said, "WHOOOOOOOAAAAAA!" very loudly--everyone in the pharmacy heard him. Yet, yes--I am now a freak of nature. I find it interesting that binge eating is under represented here. Now that this order has been officially recognized by the medical community--I wonder if that will change.

Hello, I'm new to the group. I have struggled with with binge eating and some bulimia for years now. I started out in high school on weightweighters, and lost 100+ lbs by over-restricting what I was eating and looking back I was basically just starving all the time. I went to university away from home for two years, then transferred to a university closer to home. When I moved closer to home I started binge eating really bad because all of a sudden I had more access to food at home and gained back 100+ lbs. I recently went back onto weightwatchers but decided it was a really restrictive diet and not realistic for the lifestyle change I wanted. I have now joined fitnesspal but I am finding it really hard to balance recovery and body positivity (loving myself the way I am) with losing weight. I'm trying to being mindful about what I eat and engage in more intuitive eating, within the calories outlined by fitnesspal, but my eating feels really out of control right now.

If anyone has any advice or positivity to share I would appreciate it.

Thanks!

If anybody need's support reach out. I'm here.

Need to get this group up and running again!!