I need to keep clawing and scratching my way back. I feel like I'm in this dark place. I don't want to gain back everything I have lost but I have stopped my journey in it's tracks and can't get it started again. I just don't know what to do or how to get back on track. I have tried and tried...and nothing is helping. I know that nobody can do this for me. I will keep fighting until I am back to doing what I need to do. It may take some time though but I will never give up or stop fighting for the life I want. The life I have right now is not what I want. I will be doing a lot of soul searching and writing to figure out why I have landed where I am now. I will keep posting here and journaling. Something has to click in my head to get me going again.

I think this is so much more than just a plateau. I feel so lost and on my own. I am frustrated for sure but I don't think it is all about the plateau. I have to start figuring out why I have been overweight my entire life. Sure, some of it may be genetics, some of it may be because I still eat most of the same foods I grew up on, some of it may be due to not having the best childhood. But, what exactly got me to where I am today? That is what I need to get at. I know I can't say it is because of others because I have been an adult for quite some time now and nobody forced me to eat what I have eaten. That's all on me. But the challenge for me now is to get to the root issue(s) so I can beat this once and for all.

It's hard because I don't really know (or at least I think I don't) exactly what the issue is. Maybe I'm just afraid to face it. Nevertheless, it's time to go after it and conquer it, whatever it is because I am not giving up. I started this journey in November and I promised myself that I would not stop. I can't let myself down. I just have to take the road that is presented to me at this time and do whatever I need to do to get to the end of it and walk the next road, and so on. I will get through this, but it's going to take time.

I prefer working out barefoot too; I know the experts say you need the support of shoes but it just seems better without.

I made it to Curves today! I set a goal to get there twice this week so halfway there!

HLaR79 don't give up. Even doing just a little bit is better than nothing at all. That being said it is a good thing that you are going to see your Doc as something else might be going on to cause this fatigue. I hope all is well!

As some of you may know... I have a very hard time walking. I'm scheduled for major back surgery next Thursday 06.23. After surgery I have to walk a minimum of 1 mile per day after the first 2 weeks. Well I decided after making a new friend on my fitness pal to give walking a try last night. Just to see what I can do. I know it doesn't seem like much... but I did a half mile in 12 minutes before I couldn't bare the pain anymore. I'm so excited and darn proud of myself also. I feel so good right now. I'm working on mapping out my plan of attack on weight loss, exercise, and many more things.

Well, I have lost every week this month so far...here's to another loss this week. I am just going to keep doing what I've been doing all month long and I should see a loss this week as well. I am going to start walking again. Build back up to the 2 miles I was doing before. Battling my way back, I got this!