It was only a week ago today that I held my precious cat, Rocky, in my arms as he was put to sleep. As anyone who has loved and lost a pet knows, it's not easy; but it was time.

This was my first time having to make that tough decision and be present when my precious fur baby was put to sleep. I know I did the right thing and believe we will meet again some day; however, there are still times when I look around or see something that reminds me of him and I get very sad.

Amazingly, I was able to go into the bakery this morning and only purchase a cake for my friends' anniversary (which I left a their house without having a bite - nothing short of a miracle for me!) and Italian bread for tonight's dinner. I know what many may be thinking....that I shouldn't have gotten the bread either, but since I began my journey to a healthier me over two years ago, no foods have ever been taboo. I will enjoy a piece of bread with dinner.

I am still struggling with my loss and grief, but I am happy to say that I didn't buy pastry from the bakery that would've dulled my emotions temporarily. As soon as I would've consumed that sugar, all the emotions would've come flooding back and would've been joined by a new emotion: guilt over having binged on pastries.

God is good! Just for today, just for now, I was able to say no to what my emotions were telling me I needed to do.

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