There are always setbacks. You start where you are, and that maybe a few steps back from where you were. I am perhaps not the best one with giving advice about resolve when things get tough. I have a capacity for stubbornly sticking with a dietary/behavioral rule, even if I am an emotional zombie going through the motions. It is who I am in some ways, and so it is not as if I have a strategy.

I say get back with it, and start making progress again!

@nikoba I think we all do this. The only thing that has seemed to help me at all is using amino acids while doing low carb... When our gut is impaired (leaky gut, bad digestion, candida/h.pylori, or whatever), we can't synthesize and form the aminos we need for good mental health. Using various ones for a time helped me level out, and even though I've not been a good girl carb-wise in a while, I'm actually losing a little right now, I'm not binging, and I'm rarely using food as my crutch - but my ... home based issues ... are nowhere near as intense as yours, though they are constant... All the hugs! I'm sorry for your loss....

I am sorry for your loss. I know that is not easy to go through.

As for gaining control, this is different for everyone. My struggle is I like to eat. I REALLY like eating. It is among my favorite past times.

That said, for me, this WOE is about blood sugar control, so the "what" aspect of eating is easier as BG control is of utmost importance because I want to be healthy enough to walk my daughter down the aisle one day (in many years as she is barely 12 years old now) as well as play with any grand kids I may one day have.

My issues always revolve around frequency of eating and volume of eating. I used to lament that all these eating competitions weren't around when I was younger because I likely could have won many of them. In hind sight, I am probably healthier (or at least less unhealthy) since they weren't around.

What I have found helps me with my control is fasting. I no longer have weight to lose, but I do struggle with overeating. As a result, I yo-yo about 5 lbs or so. If I meal prep, I do pretty well, but when there are get togethers and food is there, I really struggle to not eat too much. What fasting does is allow me to balance out the total. On average, I do a 48 hour fast every 7-10 days.

In addition to adding balance to total intake, it also helps me reset my hunger signals. Maybe a better way of saying that is it allows me to get my focus off food for that period. On those days for my lunch at work, I will take a walk and listen to a podcast, for instance. This allows me to do something good for me (walk getting some sunshine hopefully) as well as keeping my mind distracted with something else with the podcast.

This has been my routine for the last 3-4 months. I think it has helped me not just with weight maintenance, but it has also helped me with cravings and with more frequently overcoming the urges to overeat when I am not fasting.

I'm sorry to hear about your grandMom and your sadness. I know the emptiness and know about turning to food in your loneliness. My struggle was really non existent until both my parents were diagnosed with terminal cancer the same week in April 2006. A very big part of me left with them in 2007 and 2008 and unfortunately my grieving period was long. 6 years. 60 pounds. Don't be me.

I know it must have been very hard to watch your grandMom's health go downhill July to her passing. There was always the hope she would rally but you watch her and you feel so helpless. And then she gone. And you miss her. You miss everything about her. The emptiness can be overwhelming.

Surround yourself with friends. They care and they will listen. Let them know you need help. Reach out as you have done here. They may not all have lost someone they loved more than life itself but they will listen and they will comfort. It will help. Seek professional guidance if you feel you need it. And maybe even if you don't feel you need it. A Grief Counselor. It won't hurt.

Grief is something you can't go around, under or over. You have to go through it. You will most likely have many sad days ahead. They come out of no where. But they pass. They become less frequent yet they never go away. Know that eventually you will smile-good memories are forever. And trite as it might sound, what would grandMom want for you? To love in her memory and to carry on.

My only suggestion is to keep your environment free of your "triggers". Stay busy and reach out. You do not have to go through this alone and food is not the answer. You know that. The comfort is only temporary. Grief is sort of like weight loss. It takes time and it is different for everyone. I hate that about both.

Something very dear was taken from you. We are never prepared for the emptiness. I wish you strength. Hugs.

For me, it's all about wanting the result more than anything else... And I think it's safe to assume that your grandmother would have wanted you to be happy too. You could see this as an opportunity to honor her memory by being the best you, that you can be. Remember her with a smile.. And learn from her that life can be all too short. And find in that, the reason why you only want to eat the right amount... for you.

Good luck and take heart, you are not alone.

Also, especially in those of us who are gut-compromised, going keto can actually trigger or worsen depressive feelings - because carbs provide a serotonin boost...and if we can't convert it, and we aren't adding it...do the math there... Some folks are more susceptible than others...

P.S. That's why carbs are comfort food...