Me: 9
B: 2
DBF: 0

Aware...refocused, new goals set. Moving forward.

Me: 10
Binge: 1
DBF: 1

Had a really bad day yesterday, complete with total mental breakdown at the DMV and now feeling defeated and depressed. Binged last night in a way I haven't for a long time. But today is a new day and a new chance to make better decisions.

@HellYeahItsKriss - it's good to see you here! I always like your posts in the forums. Sorry you're having such a rough year. This entire year, from January onward, has been a wreck for me too, for different reasons, and the details aren't something I can freely talk about with people so I understand how depressing it is to have those inner battles and feel completely alone and helpless in them. It might be worth talking to your new employer though. If you start off by saying you understand if you can't take time off so soon, but then explain why you would appreciate being able to, because of your father's health, they might be understanding. Worst case, they say you can't go. Even if they kinda raise their eyebrows at the request, whether you are able to go or not, your work ethic will quickly show them that you ARE reliable. Maybe you can offer to work extra hours before or after to "make up for it." Anyway, I hope being in this group helps you- I know it's helped lots of us, including me.

Me: 12
Binge: 0
DBF: 23

Moxie42 wrote: »

Me: 10
Binge: 1
DBF: 1

Had a really bad day yesterday, complete with total mental breakdown at the DMV and now feeling defeated and depressed. Binged last night in a way I haven't for a long time. But today is a new day and a new chance to make better decisions.

@HellYeahItsKriss - it's good to see you here! I always like your posts in the forums. Sorry you're having such a rough year. This entire year, from January onward, has been a wreck for me too, for different reasons, and the details aren't something I can freely talk about with people so I understand how depressing it is to have those inner battles and feel completely alone and helpless in them. It might be worth talking to your new employer though. If you start off by saying you understand if you can't take time off so soon, but then explain why you would appreciate being able to, because of your father's health, they might be understanding. Worst case, they say you can't go. Even if they kinda raise their eyebrows at the request, whether you are able to go or not, your work ethic will quickly show them that you ARE reliable. Maybe you can offer to work extra hours before or after to "make up for it." Anyway, I hope being in this group helps you- I know it's helped lots of us, including me.

Unfortunately with Christmas this is their busy time so I cant. It's just the way it worked out.

But thanks for the welcome. I know I am usually the one giving all the advice but I normally don't ask for help when I need support cause people's helpful suggestions sadly have been tried and don't work. Lol. Usually just leaves me frustrated.

HellYeahItsKriss wrote: »

Moxie42 wrote: »

Me: 10
Binge: 1
DBF: 1

Had a really bad day yesterday, complete with total mental breakdown at the DMV and now feeling defeated and depressed. Binged last night in a way I haven't for a long time. But today is a new day and a new chance to make better decisions.

@HellYeahItsKriss - it's good to see you here! I always like your posts in the forums. Sorry you're having such a rough year. This entire year, from January onward, has been a wreck for me too, for different reasons, and the details aren't something I can freely talk about with people so I understand how depressing it is to have those inner battles and feel completely alone and helpless in them. It might be worth talking to your new employer though. If you start off by saying you understand if you can't take time off so soon, but then explain why you would appreciate being able to, because of your father's health, they might be understanding. Worst case, they say you can't go. Even if they kinda raise their eyebrows at the request, whether you are able to go or not, your work ethic will quickly show them that you ARE reliable. Maybe you can offer to work extra hours before or after to "make up for it." Anyway, I hope being in this group helps you- I know it's helped lots of us, including me.

Unfortunately with Christmas this is their busy time so I cant. It's just the way it worked out.

But thanks for the welcome. I know I am usually the one giving all the advice but I normally don't ask for help when I need support cause people's helpful suggestions sadly have been tried and don't work. Lol. Usually just leaves me frustrated.

Not wanting to give more "already tried it advice," but just in case you haven't thought of it, have you tried contacting the bus company and explaining the unexpected impossibility of travel - and asking, since the ticket was non-refundable, if they would allow you to pay a processing fee to transfer the ticket to a different day (out of work's busy season - maybe you can check with them and explain that you're going to attempt to change your ticket so it would be helpful to have dates available - especially if you say, "I know that taking off in the busy season is out, but I'm going to ask the bus company will work with me...when would be the best time for the company for me to go visit my dying father?") and see if you can get some time off in a few months to go visit? Many times you'll lose 25% or so of the original value, but that's better than losing 100% of it, isn't it? And most companies will try to help, if they can... If not, perhaps put the ticket up on Craiglist or FB Marketplace and see if anyone wants to buy the ticket at half or so value...obviously many other people are traveling for the holidays, etc...if it is usable by another person, anyway... Just in case you hadn't thought of or tried these things...

Me: 11
Binge: 1
DBF: 1

@HellYeahItsKriss - It's awesome you're able to put family first! It's so much easier said than done. Whatever your plans end up being, I hope you have a great holiday

Me: 4
Binge: 0
DbF: 4

Me: 13
B: 0
DBF: 23

Dec 14

Me: 12
The B: 2
DBF: 5