@CassieGetsFit2013 Hope things start looking up soon. I would keep all of your appointments. You actually seem to be doing well with those treatments. You have been losing. The gain this week was probably due to your TOM. I also wouldn't cancel your psych appointment. I would use every tool you have available to help make things better. I hope the rain lets up so you can get out into the garden. If I remember correctly, you love to garden. Sending hugs!

@sleepymom5 Thanks, I hope so too! I will keep all of the appointments, I promise. 🙃 I think they have helped some, but maybe not as much as I thought they would, but I'm going to stick it out because I only have 11 treatments left! Yeah, you're right, but now I'm still gonna be on TOM for my next weigh in or close to coming off of it, so it might be a bad weigh in again. 😥 It isn't raining right now so I hope to get out there soon to do a few things! My weather app does say they're calling for more rain today so we'll see! Huff! Yeah, I have been gardening for over 10 years, but for the last 3 or 4 years I didn't do aky gardening at all, I went from spending 4 to 6 hours out there, to 30 minutes and I ended up crying and going back inside so I stopped. This year, I have pushed and forced myself to start one, planned on doing a smaller one than I normally would do in hopes that it would be more manageable, even on my darker days. I'm not really sure that I'm enjoying it or that the interest for it has come back, I'm just doing it and hoping the interest will strike and come back or something.

@CassieGetsFit2013 - you are having a rubbish week *hugs* I hope you don't have sciatic pain, I had a really bad bout a couple of years ago and was probably the worse pain I've ever had, could barely move for weeks I would try and make your appointments if you can - maybe you could focus your psych appointment on how you've been feeling lately and if they can offer any additional help? I'm very much the same in that my depression tends to zap all my interest/motivation in the things I used to enjoy and it makes me really sad - I'm trying to get out of it but it's a slow process so if the TMS is even making a small difference it might be worth sticking with it x

@podperson1 I sure am, but I'm still pushing, although it might not be a atrong push, it's something at least. Well, I'm thinking it may be sciatic pain because I believe I had it many years ago too, lower back and into my left leg. This time it's my lower back, into both legs, hips and even my butt...🤦‍♀️ Can't bend much due to the nerve being pinched and pulled, can't raise either leg too much due to the same pinch and pulling happening. Did it go away for you? What did you do to treat it? Thanks, I am going to take some notes and put down my thoughts and how I am feeling so my Psychiatrist can read it and see what she thinks and can suggest. Yeah, I think what's happened to me is called Anhedonia. I've lost more interests, one after another each year and haven't been able to get any back. The only thinf I've had to do is force myself to do everything. I even have to force myself to play a game, watch a movie...Simply because I do not want to do anything at all, even things that are supposed to be fun. It's really sad and sucks. I have 11 TMS treatments left so I am definitely going to stick with it and finish it. I am going to deeply miss the sweet technician there, Danielle. She told me she will call me from time to time to see how I'm doing and I have an app that let's me message her and she said I can always talk to her there. I promised her I wouldn't bother her every day, lol. I form very strong attachments to certain places, objects and people, although I do feel like it isn't as bad as it used to be, but it's still not gone.

Hello all! I just tried to catch-up with posts, I missed a lot! Sorry I have not posted in a bit, other then my weigh-ins.

I have been so busy & beyond stressed! Work is insane! I have been working from home since mid-March & it is taking a toll on me! You would think it would be better, but I am super busy, trying to work, dog is barking, boys want me to make them food, it is exhausting! The few positives are that I can sleep a little later in the morning, my laundry gets done all week, & I do not have any commuting costs.

I also had to get my younger son caught up with his school work. Virtual school is not good for him, he was not doing any work. When I went on to check is Google Classroom account, I saw how behind he was. I have been helping him catch-up; working from 8:30-6:00 or so, then helping him until 11:00 at night. Thank God he is done! He passed everything! Tomorrow is the last day of school. This week he has had no work, he just had to sign-in to each class, last Friday all the grades were in. It is a big relief!

I had really let things go with my diet & exercise since the pandemic. I was so disgusted with myself! I finally made a decision to get back on track. The past few weeks I have been sticking to plan, no matter what. I also got back to working out. I have been doing my DVD's, walking & biking, I feel so much better! I am down about 10 pounds! I have made my mind up to get back to goal! I would love to be there by summer's end, I think I can do it!

Hope you are all hanging in there! We just started outside dining, the hair & nail salons are opening on Monday. I need a pedicure desperately, lol. My feet are not summer ready! NY/NJ got hit hard! I am hoping we do not have another wave in the Fall, but that is the prediction. I do not think I can go through this again! It has been a tough time for everyone!

Take care & have a good evening!

Daily check in Thursday
Food-fair. Did share a beer with Molly and a single barrel Jack Daniels. But no Fritos
Water-good
Walk 15
Yoga 23
Sleep-8 1/2

I just took 2 blueberry tarts out of the oven. 1 for us 1 for a new mom. Made yellow summer squash curry soup and have the cutest baby gifts for her.
I haven’t weighed yet this morning. I’m shooting for 148 by tomorrow. Coming up with a strategy for the day.
Have a great weekend everyone.
We’re off at 2pm today to celebrate Juneteenth!

06/18 steps 6499

Thursday check in
Food - logged and on target
Water - 64 oz
Exercise - 40 min walk, PT, stretching, strength


Username: Sleepymom5
Weigh in week: Week 3
Weigh in day: Friday
Previous weight: 200.0
Today's weight: 202

Ugh! Not surprised though. I didn't have the best week. I did have a great day yesterday. I followed my plan, I logged my food, I payed attention to my hunger scale, exercised and got a good PT/Strength and stretching session in. I got a lot accomplished around the house too. Today is supposed to be stormy later so I am going to try to get my workout in sooner rater than later. Hopefully not too stormy to grill later. Nicole(my oldest daughter) may also come by to hang out by the pool. Here's to another good day today!


@annliz I hope the weather improves so you can get out for a walk.
@1theresamcvean It must be so exciting so see the changes in your body! You are so close to goal and have a great plan! You got this!
@podperson1 I think with everything going on it is natural to be stressed. I am glad that you all are going to be wearing masks. Here, it somehow has gotten political. Stores do require it so that is a good thing. I hope with things go well with opening up and you are another step close to getting back to normal. Great job with the jeans! Whoo Hoo!!
@Cafelelia I had to look up "Kim’s Convenience" lol! Do you actually know that store? It is sometime good to sit back and enjoy a show that you don't need to really think about. I am glad that your younger son got to finish up his school work and go to the cabin with his dad. He seems to like to go on little adventures!
@Mrsbell8well That is a tough part of being a manager. Funny how our body sometime craves weird things even when you haven't had or thought of it in years. Knowing you, I bet you made some fancy vegan bean dip with veggies when you got home instead! Those blueberry tarts look delicious! The soup does too (well, sounds delicious). Is curry hot? I am afraid to try it... I also love your company is letting you off early for Juneteenth!
@CassieGetsFit2013 What a good idea to make the garden smaller and more manageable so you don't get overwhelmed. I hope that you end up enjoying it. As I am sure you already know, we have a lot of gardeners here!
@xX_PhoenixRising_Xx Great job still eating healthy and getting water in with all that you are going through. Take care of yourself. I hope this transition to the new med is successful. That will make this all worth it. Hugs
@kirsten11872 Like I said before, you have really turned things around. I have no doubt you will get to your goal! I want to sneak into NJ for a pedicure! I just do not do a good job myself! Lol! I guess I should let you all get in line first.
@lennoncpa Awww poor Bebe! Hope he is feeling better soon. He is such a cutie!
@melaniescott It shows rain here all weekend but it is sunny at the moment (I am in Philly). Hope you get some sunny breaks in your weather. I love the idea of breakfast for dinner. I don't know why I don't do that more often.
@bburrer30 Hello 160s!! Nice loss there lady! Even with all that is going on! I can see why you are emotionally drained! This is so hard! I have a Mom who is in an assisted living that we can't see either but she is blissfully unaware due to dementia. She doesn't even know we haven't been there (or visa versa when we do visit). I know here, the end isn't in site for the nursing home visits yet. It is sad and I wish there was a way to let the individual families make the decisions on visitation. Sending prayers and hugs.
@lenka1 Nice loss! Hope things are going well

@bburrer30 I can only imagine partially how emotional this is for you right now. This is my third try replying to your post today. I just keep crying picturing you and your grandparents. I'm so, so sorry. Blessedly, my grandmother passed away on March 1st, just before the lockdown here in Ontario. She was almost 100 and died peacefully of old age. Also, my sister was able to get a spot in a nursing home for our mother in North Bay, about five hours north of Toronto and drove her there on March 2nd. The nursing home there is on lockdown, but my sister can do the window visits. My mom is deaf but my sister uses signs which the nurses read (yell) to my mom because she's also blind. She is much safer there. But the story of your grandparents being apart with everything going on for both of them is so much more heartbreaking and I would be so over it too. Sending you all my best wishes and hugs.