196.8

I’ve lost exactly 17 lbs. That seems like a lot. I really need to focus on that number because it IS a good amount. I’m having a little bit of a problem feeling like I look the exact same as I did before I started. My clothing size hasn’t changed and I still look the same in the mirror.
My clothes might be fitting a little better but I don’t know if that’s just in my head or not. I just want to hurry up and be in the stage where I can buy new clothes and feel good about myself. I’m sure that’s what everyone wants. It’s still just hard to be happy with 196.8 when most of my life I’ve been significantly smaller.

But 17 lbs is A LOT!!!

Thanks. And I know 17 lbs isn't really a huge amount compared to other people here and compared to what I still have to lose...but I only decided to lose weight on 6/10 (and started OMAD on 6/12) so 17 lbs is a lot in that amount of time. If you would have told me 2 months ago that I was going to lose almost 20 lbs, I would have been jumping up and down with excitement.

But now I'm just like "huh...I'm still fat."

It'll be ok though. I really need to figure out how to get more exercise in. I had that plan of walking 4 days a week but that has proven to be harder than I expected. I don't know why. I think partially because weekend mornings are cuddle time so it's hard to cut that short.

Ate lunch today because we had a picnic at the veterans cemetery where my father in law is buried. Every few months we try to go up there for a picnic and visit. It’s a pretty area and has a nice walking trail around a small pond. It was a very pretty day.
So I ate a smaller than normal dinner tonight.

I haven’t really weighed myself this weekend but I expect that I’ve probably stayed the same or went up a little.

I took a break from the treadmill yesterday...and my weight finally went down a little bit. Just a tiny bit but I’m at 193.8 this morning.

Which also means that I’ve officially lost 20 lbs since I started.

I’m due to start my period in a few days so I might take a break from weighing. I don’t know. It’s addictive.

I also want to apologize for not being very social and commenting on other posts right now. I haven’t been feeling great. Not physically but emotionally and mentally. I get like this sometimes and right now I think it’s because I’m stressed over school starting back up and worrying about everything. Including finances because we usually have more time to prepare and get school supplies and clothes but this year everything is so last minute. And this is the first year that we’ve got all 3 kids in school at once. It’s just a lot. I feel like I’m off my parenting game. I woke up in the middle of the night panicking because I realized that I forgot they needed new shoes. Lol
So anyway, when I’m stressed like this I have a tendency to sort of fold into myself. I’ve been distant with coworkers and even my husband. I have to force myself to interact.

volgirl1322 wrote: »

It is super stressful right now....no need to apologize.....take the time you need . Super cool on 20lbs that is amazing WOW.........

I assume school is starting in person where you are located? We have virtual school here unitl at least Labor day, and perhaps longer.......Nashville is sucking right now with how many new cases we keep having.......

Sending you some hugs

Yes.
I’m not happy with it but there’s not much I can do about it. That’s why everything is so last minute because they weren’t telling us what was happening until last week. So now suddenly I have a ton of school supplies to buy! And my oldest is starting middle school and this is all new to us. Fees for chrome books and supplies for electives when we don’t even have his schedule yet. Ahhhhhhhhh! Lol