@bearly63 I did try a sleep meditation last night. I think it might have worked, had I not already been hyper and fidgety. I didn't lay down until 12:30 am...wasn't sleepy then. But, I thought I might sleep anyway. Nope. I found the mediation to paly at about 1:30. My legs just wouldn't stay still, but I did relax a bit. It was after 2:30 before I went to sleep and then got up 3 or 4 times to pee. Hoping tonight will be better. Maybe I'll try the mediation sooner.

@shanaber "The last couple days I've had this weird thing where my stomach feels really bloated especially after eating. Dr. Google suggests all kinds of things - one of them is "did you gain weight?!" LOL Yes, by George, I did!" That's hilarious! My mom always brushes her teeth right after dinner, so she won't eat anything else. I should, but never got in that habit. I tend to be a late night snacker. I look forward to the before and after pictures!

It was cold here today, so I did 2 miles on the treadmill at 3.5 mph. I worked up a sweat.

@quilteryoyo - no mudslides by us. Where we live it is pretty flat. My BIL has a house up in the hills that burned to the ground a few years ago (he rebuilt and has renters in it right now) and we worry about it with the fires and mudslides every season. They came pretty close last summer/fall but it ended up ok. Worst we typically get is flooding in the streets but hey, I have a Subaru and should be able to handle most anything we would encounter and I won't dare drive into anything low lying and flooded.
@ddmom0811 - so funny about the GS cookies! We got a form on our door for ordering online and I asked dh if he wanted to order any and was shocked when he said 'no, in light of controlling my diabetes I don't think it is a good idea'! So I promptly threw the form away! Maybe just maybe he is getting serious about making some changes! I hope so!
So funny about Google... Makes me wonder if they really think people don't consider these common sense things before searching.
@swenson19d - I think you just need to tell your friend what you told us. That you can't always respond in the morning cause you often aren't awake enough and it is a struggle to just get up, get ready and out the door, but that you really appreciate her contact. Maybe agree to text later in the morning or in the evenings instead?
I'm sorry the leg is so bad - I can't imagine how you deal with that while trying to study and concentrate. I couldn't do it! I hope the hip surgeon will have some answers next week.

I also have ad blockers so I don't see ads at all, not here or on the news sites or the weather channel (one of the worst IMO). I love it but I do get blocked on some of the news sites that won't let me read an article unless I turn it off. Sometimes I do that, read the article and turn it back on again. Also doe anyone else find it creepy that you look at something on Amazon and 2 days later you get an email with a bunch of info on whatever it was and all kinds of similar products? I don't even open them, just delete them... Or it pops up on your Twitter feed or on FB.

No walk or run for me today. I am definitely in a funk and it is cold (for us) and windy out and I just couldn't get out the door. Thought I might do some strength training, nope not that either. I did do some work around the house, pulling wallpaper down and generally cleaning up and of course multiple loads of laundry so it wasn't all sitting. Tomorrow with the storm, unless it is much lighter than anticipated I will be cleaning and doing strength train! Have to get moving again.
Dh decided to get take away salad for dinner and I opted for a grilled chicken sandwich with avocado. Tacos will be tomorrow or Saturday.

@quilteryoyo thank you.
I'm vegetarian so I eat my bodyweight in fruit and veggies as it is lol, trouble is I have a stupid relationship with crap food that means some stupid part of my brain thinks it needs me to stuff my face with chocolate, chips, cookies and candy whenever I'm feeling down or stressed or whatever. My maintenance calories are only 1400 per day, so yeah I add all my exercise calories back but vicious cycle means I run more to be able to eat more but then I get even more rungry. Hormones suck. Tomorrow will be 8 weeks since my last period. No wonder I'm a mess right now.

Vent below in spoilers because I'm just getting it off my chest, you've all become my diary, sorry!
So yeah, I would really love to stuff my face with chocolate right now, eat myself into a don't care sugar coma or something. I bought strawberries this morning. I'll go eat some strawberries.

Hey all. @quilteryoyo tha k you for the encouragement. And yes you are absolutely right. Already back on the wagon.

Fortunately I didn't gain as much water weight as I expected. Sleep last night was still crap - when I eat over maintenance and especially when it's mostly high sugar foods I find my heart seems to pound at night, and my RHR definitely increases. Its really interesting.

I started today with breakfast, and a 13k run. Feeling much better already. And kinda excited about the February challenge. I did January do well, now for Feb!

Still on track!

@eleanorhawkins I have trouble with crap food too. I try to just not buy it. If it isn't in the house, I can't eat it and have to find a substitute instead. That's pretty easy for me to do though, since I live alone. I know it's harder when there are other humans involved. Hormones do suck and make things worse. Sorry. That will get better, eventually. I hope DD gets the help she needs. I hear the teenage years are tough. Not having kids, I really can't relate. Hope things settle down soon.

@swenson19d I hope Cori gets better before Monday.

Yeah @Avidkeo ! You rock!

@RunsOnEspresso Sorry about your shoulder. You don't really realize how much you use any particular part of your body until it hurts to do so. I hope it starts feeling better soon and the rest gets it well.

I didn't do much today. My great niece was at my brother and sister-in-law's today, so mom and I went over there for a couple of hours, in the middle of the day. Seems like the day was gone when I got home. It doesn't help that I didn't get up until almost 9am. I did sleep a little bit better last night, but have felt more tired today. Maybe my body knows what sleep feels like now and wants more. LOL It was chilly today, but sunny, so I did my walk outside today so I could get some fresh air. I did 2 miles in 34:53 minutes.

My brother had gone to town and came back with mom and I a Burger King Whopper. That was nice of him, but not what I had planned on eating today. I was surprised that I am still under my calorie count for the day, but bet my weight will be up due to the sodium. Oh well, at least I know that will pass.

@swenson19d oh man, my head is spinning just imagining what my dad’s reaction would have been if I ever acted like that. Starting with, “You’re right, you could have done it yourself, you were too dumb to know when the drain needed a snake, and next time get your rear in there and do it!” That’s if I was lucky and he was in a good mood! She has no idea how lucky she is to have such a patient mom.

My husband has the world’s most drain-clogging hair - after years of clogged drains we finally got one of those drain covers with the mesh and now, no more problems. Definitely something to consider.

Good to see all three cats getting along!

@eleanorhawkins @noblsheep great to have you here! We hang out and talk off topic a lot.

My weight is going up for the past few weeks, can’t tell yet if it’s because of less walking due to the cold, or if I need my thyroid meds adjusted again. I will have to crack down on my logging and see if it reverses.

@rheddmobile I think that's the problem with her, her dad was never like that and Eric is the step so he has no idea how to talk to her.... and she has a hair catch thingy still in the package from a year ago when we had these same issues.. I need your dad! Perhaps he could make some extra money being a virtual dad, just a Zoom and he'll straighten your teen out! haha! gah, that'd be awesome. "don't make me call rhedmobile's dad!"

@quilteryoyo I am not overly invested in her drama anymore, just offering @eleanorhawkins support via "you are not alone" The clog is dd's problem. If she wants it cleared she can figure it. I should tell dh to leave it be and let her learn. She does love cori. He hasn't had diarrhea since yester AM's penicillin shot. yay! his rear looks much better too. I think the sleep position change could very well be the culprit.

ETA mmm chai tea. I've been out for a week.

@eleanorhawkins - like @swenson19d mentioned I think the most important thing is to keep the communication lines open as much as possible and even if she slams the door in your face. It is important for her to know that you will be there and be nonjudgemental no matter what she says, or how mean or how much it hurts. Just remember it is often the hormones talking and has nothing to do with how she really feels about you. I'm not saying though letting her get away with being intentionally hurtful. She does need to know that that is not ok either. Is there something that she can do maybe even with you that isn't studying, but not the video games where she is cut off from most everyone? Maybe something sneaky educational (for example learning one new thing about another country, their food or culture), or doing something requiring movement, even learning to dance or making a funny video with costumes she could make? Or maybe she can 'earn' video time by helping around the house, cooking dinner even? This period will pass and she will be grown up but still your sweet little girl. She is in there but just figuring out who she is separate from you. When my dd went away to college she wrote me a letter apologizing for the arguments we had when she was in HS. I honestly didn't remember most of them by that point.
@quilteryoyo - I bet it is the sleep position too. I can only last sleeping on my back for a little while and then have to flip to one side or the other. I don't think I would sleep well either if I had to stay on my back.

Apples - our elderly friend ordered apples from the grocery delivery. 3 big bags of tart Granny Smith apples. Then decided she didn't like them so gave 2 bags of them to me. I made more apple compote and may make an apple cake but I just don't know what else to do with them (ideas?). Now she wants me to also take the 3rd bag ugh... I don't want them to go to waste but honestly I am at a loss. Dh wants me to make pie in addition to the apple cake because you know, we need more carb heavy sweet treats. He also went out and got donuts again this morning and I was listening to the book about the brain and what happens when you are inactive and have all that added sugar - definitely nothing good comes of it. I am finding the book fascinating and terrifying at the same time. It makes me worry even more about dh. I just hope he will read (listen to) the book too.

So I made myself get up and out the door today. I have to stop moping around for no reason. Once I got out and moving I felt great, it was so beautiful out that I don't think you could help feeling great. I am making a plan for myself in February to move every day, either a walk and/or a strength workout or class, or a run (if I can). I would also like to get back to working out as early as possible so it doesn't feel like it takes over the entire day. I figure if I can do it for the month it will be well on the way to being a habit.

I got in to see the sports ortho much sooner than I expected. I have an appointment on Wednesday afternoon.

Thanks @rheddmobile - I hope so too. We are making baby steps and I am trying not to say too much unless asked.

You are doing great @Avidkeo ! You are NOT going to go astray in April this year. We'll help. (Just remind us, cuz we are getting older. ) Hope the house hunting and party went well.

@shanaber Granny Smith is my favorite apple, but I tend to let them spoil because I am too lazy to eat them. LOL Don't know why it seem like such an effort to cut and core an apple. Anyway, have you considered freezing some? Mom freezes apples all the time and uses them for cooking later. Sounds like you have a great plan for Feb. You can do it. Hope you get good news from the sports ortho.

@noblsheep Eating donkey and horse are not a thing here. I guess I would try making a stew, since it is cubed and should taste like beef of some sort. I'm glad your friend had the nut bar. It sounds like that was a real life saver. I try to have at least one protein bar with me at all times. You never know.

I still didn't sleep the best last night. Well, I actually slept okay, once I got to sleep at 1 am. I had tried to settle down for sleep at 10:30. Last night part of my issue was an itch on my shoulder blade - you know that one spot that you can't reach. I got my back scratcher. It helped for a minute or two, than itch again, scratch, repeat. I finally got up and managed to get a little anti-itch cream on the area. That helped and I finally slept. By getting up late, I am managing to get about 7 hours of sleep anyway, so I guess that's okay. Hopefully, once I can sleep in my bed, things will be better. Three more weeks!

I have noticed that I have a sweet tooth lately. That is normally not my thing, but I have wanted something sweet after meals for a couple of months. Since I don't want to have candy/cakes/cookies laying around, my go to is homemade honey granola. I was out, so mixed up a batch this morning. It is cooking now and smells so good. What is your go to when you need a sweet fix?