@ddmom0811 Great job with the runs and exercise plan. I haven't run over any of the FL bridges yet, but imagine they are hard. The wind makes it worse.

Cats are here to destroy the world. Cori...
He's hit that rotten stage. He's 17 years old and a wild man. LOL! Least he won't crash the car and he'll just wake you, trip you, bite you, knock the plant over and steal your food. LOL!

I'm up too early. Someone was starvin'.
...And I keep have this dream that seems so real. I think I may need professional help on this one. I had a hand in hiding a body, buried an old person half alive and the cops just found the body. It's not a dream, I wake and am spinning, "how?, I had nothing to do with it" but it's in my yard (old house), or in an outdoor closet.. I can't find the details in my head, my heart is heavy, I can feel the responsibility of it. I have had it for 10 years or so off and on. Swear I've done nothing of the sort, is it a repressed memory? Is it someone else's memory? I tried to rationalize it that it was my failure as parent, Alex of course. It is bothersome. I think I should figure this out, something deep is trying to surface?

On to checking the usually AM "what's going on" on FB. One of Alex's childhood friend is having a tough go. This poor girl has lost so many people, a blessing that she had them to lose, but it seems losing a family member is as regular as that electric bill. She lost her mom to a home invasion when she was 15ish too. She's about 3-4 hours from me, I offered to come see her and take her out come spring in all of the precautionary COVID glory or send her a care package. Least the dream and Cori's hunger gave me the chance to connect with her, hopefully offer any sort of peace.

The boys are monsters today. But it is too cute watching them romp and chatter and squeak at each other in their cat love language.

do good today, especially for yourself.

@quilteryoyo Wow, thanks for that. I'll try some introspection and seen if I can come to terms with some things and sort that all out.

Now wish me smarts on this exam that I feel ill prepared for.

Still windy... and it is also hot today, well over 80F! I did chance getting out on the ladder a little to pick tangerines. I had promised to bring some more to agility class again tonight and we ate all that I had previously picked. I am also baking again. I had 6 Granny Smith apples left and saw a recipe for an apple sourdough flatbread. It is made and rising and will be baked soon - not a good day to bake when it is already hot. I will not turn on the AC either, it is just wrong to need to run it in February.
I ended up doing an at home workout yesterday with @ddmom0811's thought of just 15mins... did some yoga and then told myself I would just do one set of 3 exercises and see how that felt. I ended up doing the 3 sets I set up in my plan, each 3 times thru. So 3 sets of 3 different exercises each 3 times through with 12-15 reps. I kept the weights pretty low since I haven't done them for a while and today I am not (yet) too sore. Then it was cool enough to take Hobbes for a little walk. I Amy take him out today if it cools down a bit more (still 82F) but mostly I need to take a shower before class and cook my bread.

@quilteryoyo - that is so interesting about the dreams. I have never thought to look them up but then I don't usually remember too much about them. I do get these weird deja-vu feelings sometimes that literally stop me in place but I can never figure out what it is related to. It used to happen all the time and then stopped and started again just recently. I always figured it was related to something I had dreamed about but who knows.

@swenson19d - The cats sound so funny. I would be spending all my time watching them! Its not the same but I love to watch Hobbes play. Every night around 7pm he decides to pull out a toy, different one almost every night, and runs around like a crazy dog shaking the toy until someone plays with him. He likes to tug so he and dh go at it for a while and he will run off with the toy and then come back for more. It takes about 20 mins but then he is done and has to take a nap.
This other MFP group is nothing to be jealous of, just a bunch of older ladies that I am not even sure how I got involved with. Only one of them is really into fitness per se and she also lives in So Cal. She works out, hikes but no longer runs.
I hope Alex's friend is ok and takes you up on the help. I also always hated group projects especially since it always seemed I go groups like yours or ones that would do nothing and didn't care. Can you pull in the IF aspect with obesity? I have been reading a lot about circadian rhythm and eating to coincide to that and why it makes a difference. They think that is one reason IF works for some people. It has worked well for dh. He has been pretty happy to see his blood sugar numbers continuing to come down and his weight is also dropping a little. He really hasn't significantly changed what he is eating. That is next on my grand plan though 😁

OMG @shanaber yes, I can do some IF stuff. I am trying to think of ways that it shares new info and nothing the class and instructor just check out on because we are terrible. I'll not have it. I have Siri tracking some notes for me for tomorrow when I start my literature search. I get to do the meta-analysis on the data. WHOOO! least that's fun. I was teasing about you about the other group... LOL! but good to know we are your favs.

@quilteryoyo I have always thought dreams had meaning, this one I just could never figure out and yes it it did start before Alex, in fact it began when his behaviour and mental health became an issue. Soo, I could guess that it is because I failed my little brother, he was sexually molested for years and I just didn't understand or have anyone to tell and no one seemed to care and fear of what trouble I'd get into.. so i have that guilt and the guilt of failing Alex. DD is not doing anything with her life, I could feel responsible. She is now without spending money as the card I gave her (Alex's account) was compromised and I may not be able to use it legally... so I have not offered her a replacement. And she was told to get a job. I am waiting for her to need toiletries and have to ask mama for them at 26... Upside is that she is smoking less.

Ok so I need a good cry and to forgive myself or find a way to repent. Anything to quell this angst and judgement to come. Although, if it is mine to bear then I shall take it without qualm.

@quilteryoyo I definitely like the government spin.... corruption in the name of the almighty dollar at the expense of generations! I don't do low fat stuff. The brain is fat, fats are good... well some are. Not ben and jerrys.

Grade.
It updated and now I am not sure what I made. I track the running points and figure it by difference as a way to predetermine where I am .... it could be a 90.7. Well I wont get my hopes up, but I do hope so. I'm emotional today on 4 hours of sleep so who knows how great my recall was. I feel dumb.

Apple made me inadvertently call a number I had blocked. it called me and I was trying to figure out why it was put through.... grrrr.... then it called me right back. ugh... I found block eventually. Old coworker. he was fine and all but then retired and gave me a card... ugh no buddy. I'm not your kitten. nice fellow and all but dude, not appropriate and you got marriage trouble you should solve them without a third party. well, unless its a therapist or your pastor or a lawyer.

ETA for clarity (still sloppy, Bear barfed had to cwean up awfer the widdle bwear bwear... )

@rheddmobile Your dejavu theory sounds like a great explanation. I'm curious about this jamais vu. The mind is a curious thing.

Eta oooh I looked it up. I've had it when I get migraines.

I think I heard that dreams are your subconscious sorting out your memories, thoughts, emotions and filing them away. As it does that, it looks for things you already know/understand that relates to the emotion/memory to provide context. I usually dream of my mom every night and the dreams center around her suddenly coming back and the house being empty and that I have made some horrible mistake and she wasn't dead.

I wrote a post yesterday but hit "done" vs "post" and lost the whole thing so I took it as a sign to move on.

Yesterday was a pretty good day, the calories were a little high because I got into some Ruffles. I had a good run and really worked on breathing through my nose and using my core/diaphragm. I thought I was going to suffocate. I spent a good portion of the day working on my side hustle, so much so I missed the internet guy ringing my doorbell for 5 min, DH was not thrilled.

Today I woke up hungry and tucked into some food before I sketched out my day in MFP...alas I somehow have only 300 calories for dinner. No exercise planned but I may pull up a 10 min upper body workout on peloton b/c 30 seconds of downward dog yesterday had my shoulders screaming. I am also oddly sore in other places (calves, inner thigh). I got on the scale this morning, I think my running avg app said Iost .5lbs last week, I will take it.

I am going off my calorie estimates from when I did a breathing metabolism test where you breath in a machine for 10 min. I was in a lot better shape back then and had a lot more muscle mass, but the test guy said that my RMR shouldn't change much, but I am suspicious. I feel like your %'s would change your RMR to some degree.

8 day streak! Gonna keep going

@shanaber I'm with you on the "no diets" diet. I just try to watch portions, and am trying to do more unprocessed foods and healthy fats. I think restricting things too much is just not something you can do for the rest of your life and that's why they fail. Glad you had fun at agility. Hope you recover from it soon!

@CMorning99 I hope the munchies go away. Maybe have some raw veggies.

I've lost track of some of the things I have told you all. I don't want to be a Debbie Downer all the time. Anyway - the good news is that the part is in for my heat pump, it's going to be sunny tomorrow, so they are coming in the morning to put fix it! I hope it's fixed for good this time!

Bad news is that my cousin has been in the hospital since Feb 14. He became confused and disoriented, so the assisted living place sent him to the VA for evaluation. He isn't getting any better, as of now. In fact, he's a little worse because he is being combative - hitting and spitting on the staff and cussing and calling them some really not nice things. They have done lots and lots of tests and can't figure out why this is happening. The symptoms are similar to what happened in 2020, but then he was hypoxic. Now, his oxygen level is great on room air. They are going to try to do another CT of his brain tomorrow and see if anything has changed that they can see. They did give him something this afternoon to calm him down and he was sleeping when I called them around 5pm. They do not know, of course, how long he will be in the hospital or in this state. I talked to the assisted living director - she is going to check but thinks that Medicaid won't pay anything for his room there as long as he is in the hospital. He can't afford to pay for it without their help for more than a month or so. I understand, but what are people supposed to do. That's his home. He'll have nowhere to go again if he doesn't get better soon. The VA social worker and I will have to figure out something.

Good news: I was able to talk to the correct people at the VA regarding dad's bills. They are going to call the hospital to tell them what they need to do and said if I get any bills to call the provider and tell them where they need to send the bill and if I have any trouble to call them back and they'll take care of it. At least that is taken care of.

I'm stress eating. Trying not to. At least I didn't buy any chips or ice cream at the store today, so I'll have to eat the basically good things I have on hand. So far, I haven't gained too much back - around 3 pounds and holding. I'll take that for now.

I am keeping up my walking streak. It was really nice here today - 61°F and sunny, so took Tippy back in the neighbor's field and finished my 2 miles doing driveway laps again.

What a mess @rheddmobile ! Hope things improve quickly for everyone.

@Avidkeo It's so hard to eat well when you are at all day meetings.

Good morning to all of you from the Energy Capital of the US. Please not the sarcasm in my voice.

We finally made it back from Chicago on Friday. We had flights cancelled sunday-Thursday.

Came home to a house with power (we were lucky) but no water, as the pumping station for our water supplier had no power. My daughter and sister were trying to gather snow and use pool water for flushing and boiling. The water came back on Friday but we are still as of last night and today on a boil water notice as our water tests failed yesterday. I was able to finally go to the grocery store and buy some fresh food - limited to a few things of meat, 1 dozen eggs, 1 pack of water, etc. I got 3 avocados....so that was a win.

Again, I feel very lucky - so many people had pipes freeze inside their homes and alot of damage. we lost some pool filter pipes and about a 3rd of our pool water.

2 takeaways:

1. Texas likes to go it alone. This is great until you need your neighbors. A power grid that is on its own just to avoid federal regulation becomes a problem when you need your neighbors during these situations. I don't expect the leaders to change.

2. Investing in infrastructure like winterizing water systems needed for nuclear and natural gas plants is a good idea even when it may only happen once every 30 years. The damage costs from this winter disaster supposedly will be more than any hurricane. I don't expect any change.

Ok off my soapbox.

I tried to speed read through all the posts.

Love the zoom call idea.....hope it went well.

Everyone here has good stuff and struggles....love the support you all give.


For me:
I am hoping to get back on track with tracking macros/cals and trying to get off sourdough and wine again. It was hard being away from home and them coming home to being able to buy plenty of wine but no clean water.

Exercise/physical:
Getting back into a routine. My hip just has gotten progessively more mad at me. Finally went to the Ortho Hip guy - cute young Sanja Gupta lookalike.

His diagnosis after looking at a new xray: Osteoarthritis is causing the pain and I will eventually be getting an new hip. I told him I was confused as to how that related to a year ago when I was told it was a stress fracture. He said they could be related or not....hard to know. He also said my femoral neck on one side is a little malformed....it doesn't dip in like the apple core look on the other side and this is creating more friction with my socket and labrum with my increased exercise routine.

I finally broke down and got the cortisone shot in my hip (right into the flexor area into the joint. Ouchhhhh!!!
It still hurts today but I am hopeful that it will last a long time to get be back to full exercise. I was told that running is really out of the picture if I want to keep going. "it's the worst cardio out there due to impact on spine and joints." He said swimming, cyling are better. I asked if I could walk or jog really slow ( I do anyway) he shrugged and repeated the above. I want to keep moving so I need to heed this advice I suppose. Sigh.

Happy Wednesday Peeps!

Good morning folks!

Glad everyone is home and safe...albeit a bit out of sorts. I lived in Texas in 2009 and we had a cold snap and all our pipes froze then as well, but only for 1/2 a day. We tried to winterize prior, but the way the house was built, we couldn't.

There was another pre-preliminary hearing yesterday, I haven't heard back from the victim liaison yet if the Judge cleared the way to move to preliminary hearings. The DA is still thinking Apr/May timeframe for the actual trial.

Yesterday didn't turn into quite the disaster I thought it would. I was miserable at work, my desk was so uncomfortable and I was so hungry and all my work was so uninspiring. But once I got home and relaxed my appetite calmed down and I think I came in around maintenance. No exercise.

Today's work day is a bit better. I bit of drama with the kids and I am pretty sure one of them thinks I am his personal dream killer b/c I keep stopping him from doing thinks he wants to do (usually without thinking). I am still working on evaluations for folks. I was told I am the only person who just doesn't say "you are doing great" and will actually hold people back from promotion if they do not demonstrate the maturity to lead others. There is a reason why people call me "Iron Maiden". But while I have the folks who hate me, the folks who actually work with me are now up for Air Force level awards and getting promoted fast.

I wasn't that hungry this morning, good thing since my oatmeal exploded in the microwave and so breakfast was popcorn and a banana. I need to make chili tonight for a competition.

3.5 mile run on the books for this afternoon, supposed to be 20mph winds...when did Cali get so windy? I also need to some short upper strength, my shoulders still hurt from my 30 sec of downward dog LOL

Hope everyone is getting some vitamin D and fresh air!

Oh, they replaced the outdoor coil on my heat pump today. Hopefully it's now fixed!

@quilteryoyo yay for heating! Fingers crossed it stays fixed.

@shanaber good luck on the MRI. Make sure you pick some good music.

@bearly63 yay for being home. That type of femur outline is called cam type of femoral acetabular impingement (fai). Its become a bit of a fashionable thing to diagnose. Most people probably have some kind of FAI and don't notice. Athletes often get xrays for it because it can affect their range of motion. Sorry about the oa though, and the steroid injections are no fun.

@bearly63 I’ve been running now 3 years after an ortho told me that people like me shouldn’t run. In fact, like your ortho he said that if it was up to him no one would run. Seriously, get a second opinion from an ortho who is a runner. The idea that osteoarthritis is made worse by running is out of date and the idea that running is bad for joints is completely the opposite of what research has found. Runners don’t “wear out their joints,” they have less joint wear than non-runners.

Incidentally the pro-runner ortho I went to for a second opinion looked at the exact same x-rays and mri and said FFS there’s nothing wrong with your knee cartilage, you have a weird meniscus in the place where it was torn years ago but you don’t even have osteoarthritis, I have no idea what (his colleague) was even talking about.