Today, I took my measurements. It was not pleasant. 😂 But, I meet the teacher I will be working with tomorrow. So, A New start?!

My plan is to log everything, stay under calories, get my steps and drink that water. One perfect day—right? I often do better when I have structure to my day.

I also plan to start weighing every day for a while to see if that keeps me more on track.

Way to go team!!! I’m so PROUD of all you wonderful losers. I’m hoping I join you next week. 😁

PW: 89.4
CW: 89.8

Your pictures are amazing @ashleycarole86, I'm glad you both enjoyed it!

I did not succumb to late night snacking any day of the week which is a huge win for me. On Saturday we had a salad with allotment tomatoes, cucumber and beetroot - the beetroot is the stripy kind and it was delicious. I'm glad I have a few more! We have eaten out a lot though due to having house guests. However, they've now gone, and the house is ours for 3-ish weeks until my sister comes to cat sit and we go on holiday.

Mom and I did several sewing projects over the weekend, a lot of shopping and a lot of talking. I did not find any clothes for my upcoming holiday (plenty of other things, of course), and I felt really big in a lot of what I tried on. My main battle is against the worry that I'll ruin our holiday by feeling self conscious, so I'm reminding myself that nobody cares, everybody has their own hang ups etc, and I've ordered some clothes online to try, plus planning a shopping centre trip one evening.

After talking with Mom, I concluded we're basically the same person! All the same worries, feelings etc. She'd not shared any of it with another person before, so she came away feeling like the weight of the world had been lifted. For me it was good to talk with somebody who really understands, and some of what Mom said helps builds the picture of where my perfectionism-tied-to-self-esteem comes from.

The morning after our big talk, I contacted a cleaner and she will come weekly. I need to lighten the load somehow and I think this is a good step in that direction. I feel less guilty about spending the money now. Of course, it does mean running around tidying and cleaning before she comes lol, so that's the main plan for this evening, plus a bit of allotment time.

Weigh in Day: MONDAY
PW: 205.2
CW: 204.9

I’ve some GOOD NEWS - I have a surgery date - September 16 I get my 1st new hip 😁💃🏼

@ashleycarole86 my extremely delinquent steps & exercise!

Aug 7th: 11,721
8th: 4,665
9th: 18,785 + 34 min dance cardio
10th: 12,661
11: 13,680
12: 13,142
13: 8,973
14: 3,163
15: 8,051
16: 15,139 +1 mile jog (12 min mile pace, 5mph)
17: 18,105
18: 9,583
19: 8,201 + 1 mile jog
20: 10,286
21: 12,272 + 0.75 mile jog

wowzers. happy to see only 2 of these crazy days were below my pledge! and some very high days with the move! luckily I think my foot injury is holding up well/really on its way out this time since I haven't been in pain outside those 18k days (whos feet wouldnt hurt!)

I've really ghosted the habit tracker too! try to pick that up tomorrow, along with my weigh-in which should be on time for Liselyn @jugar and hopefully a small green week... i am SO ready to get back to routines after the last 2 weeks, sheesh.

TTYL

Hi. Busy day at school. Got in my steps, fair water. Unfortunately, I’m in the breakfast club today. It’s the only meal I logged. Scale is up a bit again. 🙁

I’ll aim for that perfect day tomorrow or, at least, more “perfecter “ than today. 🙂

Evening team!

I officially feel run ragged. I have caught up here, and the step report is almost ready, so I'll have that tomorrow. So lovely to see how everyone is doing.

I have been super short on time lately, and what has given is my exercise minutes. I am still getting movement in, but not what I want to get in.

It's little things... for example an operational upset came up at work tonight right at the end of the day and I ended up having to work over 2.5 hours late.

Last week, it was a work meeting getting called over my lunch hour, which ate into my planned time for getting my steps.

Some of it has been fun things, like an unexpected extra visit from our trailer neighbors on Saturday which meant I had less time than I thought to be active.

I've also made choices. I could either go to bed at a reasonable time, or exercise. Depending on the day, I choose what I need most.

All that to say, the seasons of life ebb and flow. What I will remain primarily focused on is what goes in my mouth. I have way less "fun calories" when I'm not exercising as much, but that's okay. The plan works the same. I just eat in accordance with my activity, and move on.

I've been serious with myself throughout this journey that my foundation had to be solid, so that when these moments of busyness (or life stuff) came up, I still had the tools. This is the kind of stress that would have driven me to the bottom of a chip bag before. Now, I do what I can.... nothing more, nothing less, but I remind myself food doesn't fix anything, I drink my water, I plan food before I eat it, and I'm nice to myself!

And most importantly... I check in here, confess it all, and start fresh the next day

I've had a wobbly few days, it started on Friday when I weighed in and the scale did not reflect what I thought it should. I know the scale is data and one of many tools in my toolbox and I shouldn't let it upset me, but it did and it took me three days to work through it 🙆🏼‍♀️

On the flip side, I had a loss. I also stuck to exercising, tracking and drinking my water, all good things.

So I’m happy to report that today I’ve finally let it go, phew!