Kind of crazy week thus far.
Got a text yesterday that my M-F barn gig can't afford to keep me anymore (which I am not surprised by, and kind of saw coming after a couple boarders left and the spots have remained unfilled, and the owner's health has declined, so his teaching is non-existent).
I can just barely afford to live on my main job, but it's tight - really tight - but do-able. Not having the barn frees up time to focus on my business and finding some freelance/part-time/contract work that would be more related to what I want to move into and build more relevant experience. Only issue is there is nothing in the pipeline yet, so still would have to land something.
Right now my plan starting next week (barn wants me to finish out this week), move my lifting workouts to the morning before work (like I used to do) and use the evening for business stuff and finding/landing some work in alignment with that and/or education for those things plus meal prep/cooking/cardio/etc.
I'm less upset than I thought I would be, part of me is almost relieved even though any fun this year just flew out the window - might just be getting used to getting kicked when I'm down so it's not as big of a deal as it would have been a year ago LOL.

Happy Friday you all!
I had a really low weigh-in today, which was a very pleasant surprise (weighed in twice just to be sure lol). This week with everything else going on I haven't been lifting, but have been making sure I at least get some cardio of some variety in - my cardio conditioning is HORRIBLE right now, and my dog is even worse LOL, so dog walks and a couple short jogs have been the exercise of choice this week. Dog might only get a short walk today (she got a run on the trails by our house yesterday and I was practically having to drag her along, so don't want to over do her conditioning) then a jog by myself...I don't enjoy running, but my ankle is doing good at the moment, so there's a part of me kinda enjoying some running around.
I'll be back to lifting, now in the mornings before work, since the barn is done, and will stick with some kind of cardio in the afternoons since that is pretty bad right now lol.
Still not sure what to do about the money the barn owes me....not sure where that balance of "hey, I did the work already, I was not volunteering that kind of time, you owe me the money or a discussion of some other kind of recompense," and being an insensitive *kitten* about the fact that the one owner and the trainer is dying of cancer in the next couple months most likely....I'm sure they are still expecting their boarders and lesson students to pay THEM though....so, ya....they're HORRIBLE about communication though (seems to be a common theme in most barns), so that doesn't help since I'm over here just guessing whether they have just decided to try ghosting me, or if they have a plan in mind to settle things.

I'm still struggling with the mornings - I know what I should be doing, I know how to do it and I'm just - not. Part of me is excusing the choice by saying I'm stressed and sleep is good (true), and that because of that, it's not that important I get up (even though I can still technically sleep in an hour later than I have been for the past year) - not true.

At least getting some cardio in and really trying to get into a cardio zone a few days a week. I can barely get into the peak range without huffing and puffing like I'm going to die though - and still a long ways from my max hr when I was last focusing on more cardio!

Would help to have some kind of cardio equipment in the house on the days when doggo needs a lighter walk as I try to get her back into shape. Have a few videos I could do, and will probably see if I can find more of those to follow for cardio workouts on light-doggo-walk days.