Hello everyone... I have always been attracted to women. My first crush was a female teacher I had. I grew up in a family that said it was evil to be in same sex relationships. So I tried to like boys. My first boyfriend was a sweet young man who I knew was gay. I would make myself like guys and to be a normal girl. I then became a friends with a wonderful girl when I was 14. She and I had "sleep overs" but no one knew. I knew I belonged with a female it felt so right. One week end I went home and told my family. I was told that I was evil and going to go to hell. I wasnt allowed to be near my younger family members due to my sexuality. I wasnt allowed to even pee in the family bathroom. If I did I had to bleach everything down for everyone else to use it. So I again I made myself become "normal". Then men I would date I would make shave their leg, chest, and armpit hair. Their hands had to be always soft. Well ok fast forward years later I met this sweet guy. We spend a lot of time together. We start dating and I end up pregnant. We end up getting married. I tell everyone I am bisexual but maybe im not. I cant be a "complete" wife to him. I only want to cuddle never anything more. Could all that my family put me through growing up made me think that I am bisexual when I am not? Is there anyone out there that knows if this can happen? I dont know how to deal with it any longer. I dont want to hurt my husband but I am running out of reason why I am just not in the mood any more...