So tomorrow is my surgery, and to get myself motivated I dug around in the back of my closet looking for something too small. I found an old pair of jeans that looked brand new that somehow had not been sent to goodwill. I recalled putting them on a couple of years ago and not getting them over my thighs, I'm not sure why they didn't leave the house then, but I put them on anyway just to get an idea of how far I had come and how much further I would need to go. They pulled up over my hips but were far from closing. This is my first clothing goal, a size 16, I think of a 16 as the bottom end of shopping in the fat girl section. I know the designers say 14 is fat girl clothes but as you can buy it in the traditional clothing sections I don't see it that way. My theory is, if I can get them comfortably zipped and buttoned I will have dropped down to a size I haven't seen since 1998 and I will have an excuse to go shopping as ALL my current clothes will look ridiculous on me. These jeans don't represent my total goal, just my first hanging up visual aid, so my eyes can't lie to me if I look in the mirror and don't see my progress I can always try on the pants.