omg finally someone who feels the same way! binging is ruining my life! Everytime I binge I'm a fat worthless slob. I hate feeling like this so much and despite the fact of feeling like crap after a binge, I find myself doing it over and over again. I literally sit and eat buckets, not bowls, of ice cream and always get more than one slice of cake and I just sit there in front of the t.v. eating crackers and cookies wanting to stop but find my hand drifting back into to the box for just "one more." I ask my family to get rid of these snacks and to stop me from eating so much but no one helps. I always end up stopping when it's too late and I've just consumed three days worth of calories. I try to tell myself that every day is a new day and I can restart but I always find myself back in the same regretful routine. I used to suffer from mild aneroxia and being thin was so easy back then. My weight was not healthy but I just think that it was better than where I am now. I dont know how i went from barely eating to constantly needing something to eat. I have no self control and there's maybe one day in between binges where I eat like a normal child but then the next couple of days it's just a cycle of binging and guilt and regret. I literally just wanna hide in a hole and not eat. I hate this. I hate doing this to my body and I really just wish I could get some help. It seems like no matter what I do, I'm a failure. I look at other girls who have all this under control, they don't have to worry about over eating or the pain that comes with it. I just want to be able to eat normally and healthy and not binge. This really sucks and it's ruining not just my life but my self- esteem