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Stress and anxiety. From work, life, an upcoming dentist appointment to get 2 cavities fixed, and IBS (which ironically is made worse by stress and anxiety).

Made it through another busy work week. I was going to go to the library and use one of their free resources to look for a better job but it’s looking like my IBS has different plans for me today. Guess I’ll just do as much as I can from home. I know there’s nothing I can really do except ride it out but I seriously…

Made bad eating choices this afternoon. Ate a small breakfast so I wouldn’t have any IBS issues during my morning meeting. It was only supposed to be an hour, ended up being almost 3 hours. I was starving by the time I finally got home so I had a sandwich. That part was fine. The 400 calories worth of pretzels I had along…

Got lots of editing done this long weekend. And my weight went up again at my last nutritionist appointment so that’s good. Also survived my grant writing certification classes, so I’m happy that’s over. Now if I could only find a job in that field…my parents just keep telling me to have faith and be patient but after…

I tend to get nightmares with different recurring themes depending on what’s causing me anxiety in real life. Woke up at 4:45 this morning from a dream that combined all three of the recurring themes: out of control cars, back in school but don’t know the schedule, and someone breaking into the house and I’m powerless to…

Working from the office today. My smoke alarm started chirping at 9:30 last night and the noise was still going on this morning at 7:30 when I left. Even with a step stool I’m too short to reach up and disconnect it, so I put in a work order. Should be fixed today but the noise was driving me nuts last night trying to…

Today was surprisingly productive at work. I say surprising because I’m still fighting with IBS symptoms and I only got 5 hours of sleep last night. This class that I’m taking was kind of a struggle tonight. The whole reason I signed up was so I could pursue a career in grant writing but now im not sure that’s the right…

@Bex953172 Maybe invite your kids to join in the dance party with you?

My brain: 5 hours of sleep is plenty when you have a busy work day followed by 3 hours of night class Me, struggling when I’m only 1/3 of the way through tonight’s class: 😴. I took this class so I could pursue a new career but now I’m not sure it’s the right career path for me. Which leaves me exactly where I was before…

Took a drive yesterday and went to the Wright Brothers memorial in Kitty Hawk, NC. Kind of a spur of the moment trip but the weather was nice and I needed a break. This next week is going to be pretty busy too, with 2 medical appointments, class, and work. But I’ll just take it one day at a time.

Big class assignment due today. My vacation I was hoping for is turning into just a day trip tomorrow. Driving down to Kitty Hawk to check a national park historic site off my list. It will only be a small break, but it’s still much needed after this crazy week.

No editing for me today. Maybe I’ll try to squeeze some in before day job starts tomorrow since I don’t have a homework assignment due tomorrow. IBS is acting up today so I haven’t felt great. Really low energy. Putting my brain back in school mode is hard, especially at the end of the day when I’m already tired. Hoping I…

Monday, 2/5 - yoga 🤷‍♀️(mostly just breathing exercises, not much movement) - Lots of water ✅ - Day job (6am - 3pm) ✅ - Night class (6pm - 9pm) ✅ - Edit book 3 of my trilogy ❌ Definitely forgot editing was one of my goals. Oops. Stayed up fairly late last night and didn’t start work until almost 8 today because I had to…

My goals for every day this week will be the same: - yoga - Lots of water - Day job (6am - 3pm) - Night class (6pm - 9pm) - Edit book 3 of my trilogy I think that will be plenty to deal with.

I don’t know what my purpose is in this life. I don’t know where I’m supposed to be but I know it’s not where I’m at.

Stress has taken away my appetite. Past couple days I’ve eaten because I know that’s what’s expected of me, not because I’m hungry or actually enjoying it. My IBS isn’t thrilled with my choices. And just to add to my stress levels I’m taking some classes starting next week to get a grant writing certificate, which will…

MONASH university has an app. It costs money, but it’s been worth it to me. Their website has recipes as well. I should point out that I’ve used it to combat IBS issues, not for weight loss. It is not meant to be followed long term. You cut out triggers for about two -six weeks and then gradually add foods back in to…

Looks like another busy week ahead. Just going to take it one day at a time and try to not let the stress get to me

30 items still left on my to do list for work. And I’m 200 emails behind so there’s probably more assignments buried in there somewhere. Guess who gets to work all weekend when they desperately need a break? Again, my only goal is to make it through the day.

Yesterday went completely sideways. Didn’t feel like eating much, slept in 2 hours late, made a “quick” visit to Mom and ended up staying way longer than intended because she kept sharing stories about various members of the extended family. Basically, I didn’t get much work done, leading to me feeling completely…

My work supports the federal government, so that’s the ID that expired. Lots of red tape and paperwork to go through to get a new one issued. My supervisor had to cancel her appointment at the ID center so I took her spot and hopefully should have one by the end of Tuesday. Whether or not it works is a different story, but…

Feeling overwhelmed, invisible, and completely worthless. No one at my job cares about me as a person with various mental health needs and a desire to have a life outside of work. They just keep piling more *kitten* on top of me and don’t listen when I say I don’t have the bandwidth to handle any of it. I don’t even have…

Turns out IBS and TOTM don’t mix well, so most of this weekend was spent curled up in bed with stomach pain and massive amounts of fatigue. Feeling a little better today, just in time to start another crazy week at work. My work ID expired, and the system for getting a new one is inefficient to say the least so I can’t get…

Technology malfunctions at work making me fall even further behind. Sooooooooo many technology malfunctions. I think my brain is going to malfunction if any more crap gets dumped on top of me today.

@mytime6630 They are emojis on my phone. I’m not sure if it would work on a computer or not, I’ve only ever used the phone app

Goals for 1/17 - yoga ✅ - Crochet temperature scarves ❌ - Edit book 3 of trilogy ❌ - Plan out CYOA project ❌ - 40 oz of water ❌ 10 hour work day today 😴 The yoga was a must, but the other stuff I let slide.

Goals for 1/16 - yoga ✅ - Crochet temperature scarves ✅ - Edit Book 3 of my trilogy ✅ - 40 oz of water ❌ - 32 oz, so close! - Try introducing goat’s cheese ✅ Not sure if I like the taste or not, but I did at least try it. Goals for 1/17 - yoga - Crochet temperature scarves - Edit book 3 of trilogy - Plan out CYOA project -…

Hi 👋🏻 I’m Emily, I’m 32 years old, I write novels (mostly sci-fi and fantasy) and to pay my bills I also work at a defense contractor doing a little bit of tech writing and a whole lot of admin work. I’ve been MIA from this group for a while. Basically I got burnt out and needed some time to recover. Anyways, now I’m back.…

Today I spent more time worrying about how much I have to do than actually getting stuff done. Burnout is weird (and also exhausting)

My job is beyond frustrating right now. Largely because my manager, despite dumping a huge load of work on me and telling me how much more work is coming in the new year, hasn’t even said thank you. That seems like such a small thing to be annoyed by, but at the same time I don’t think it’s unreasonable to expect those two…