aoikirin

I aim for 1500-1800

I think it's just really hard for me not to use food to self medicate my feelings of stress, loneliness, etc.

I did it again today after being good a number of days. :(

Thanks for all the input everyone. I decided that I'm not ready for cheat meals yet. I need the structure and control of being accountable. :)

Well part of the problem in my case is that I have had a binge-eating disorder in the past, so I definitely use food for reasons I shouldn't. Basically it started because of restriction and feeling really hungry. So eventually I started to get so hungry that I would binge. Then I started to gain weight so I began to purge…

I know but you're talking to someone who could eat a horse ;0

*Update* I finally ended things. I miss him a lot but it was a necessary step to preserve my dignity and self-respect. How can one be in a relationship with someone who is unwilling to bestow acceptance. I do feel lonely now, and I miss the fun times we had seeing old movies together and just the companionship in general.…

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We don't live together. My overnight company is required apparently lol

We sleep together every night!

Thank you to all who contributed to the thread. This is a bit of an update. Last night was sort of a breaking point. I asked and pushed again about the attractiveness issue. I was told that not only is my body an issue, but that I lack certain intangibles such as a compatible pheremonal scent! LOL There were other…

Thank you for all of the feedback! I forgot one of the most hurtful ones....you would be so hot if you lost 25 pounds. :::((((

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yeah I think this is a good way of looking at it. I am letting my close proximity to my goal cause laziness.

I worked all day and I am tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I did it last night and threw it all up. My face is so swollen. I think I have created a pretty strong negative aversion. :) I doubt I will do it again.

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Oh so maybe it is a fluke ;/

I should do it again tomorrow?

Well considering I have done this since May and had only lost 8 lbs until the 21st of August - this was quite surprising and I was wondering if it was possible or maybe a mistake. I don't think my original message was unclear.

Inner thigh weight lifting? ;0

Thanks for that response - I guess you are right about the excuses part. In many cases it gets harder because people slack as you said. :) You know what, I think 5 is pretty good considering I didn't exercise most of the month. I was naughty. I will do differently now though. Sometimes I go back and forth about how…

You may not be doing anything wrong. I worked really hard this past month and I only lost 5 pounds, not the 2 lbs a week or something. Often this process is just sort of slow. ;( Hang in there

Yeah people don't seem to get that affectations of any kind are a form of drag. LOL I say let people self-identify as they wish. Right?

So I did the weigh-in today and I have lost 5 lbs this past month. I am now 248 (ok so that's a big big number but I am 6'4 ;0 ) I am happy but sort of wish it were more. Still though it is pretty good, right?

Cool. I didn't go, even though I live in Berkeley. I am glad it was awesome ;0

I am sorry for this, but it doesn't surprise me. There is a lot of this in our communities, not to mention some of the worse racism I have ever seen. There is a lot of room for improvement.

About the bear - thing. I guess the definition is quite different depending on whom you ask. Some people who aren't hairy identify as bears, as do a lot of what most would consider chubs. Then there are cubs, and 50 year old men still calling themselves cubs. :0 lol I think it's a very fluid sort of identity. It usually…

I think once a month is good for me. As it it is terrifies me. LOL I am doing it tomorrow :(