Bonushkie

Well according to BMI calculators I'm at 30.3 and 30+ is obese. I'm hoping to get to around 120, I remember being 135 lbs and I was quite chubby at that weight but I guess it might be different with muscles. Guess a more realistic goal would be 15% BF

I might be slimmer but since I still have ~60 lbs to lose I still look and feel like a blob. Slightly smaller blob but baby steps I guess. Maybe I'm just feeling off because I was in heavy denial about how fat I got before I started the diet and am just impatient now and want to get it all off. I did hear that eating too…

Could the stall just be due to changing my exercise routine? Before the weight training I did was pretty pathetic and I've definitely added a lot. I've been using heavier weights on both machines and free weights since I started. Sadly my thighs aren't getting that much smaller but hopefully that's temporary. Cardio's a…

I should probably drink more water but I try to keep it over 1 liter per day. I drink much more when I work out. As for cheese, I don't eat a lot of it, maybe 2 slices now and then? I do have a protein issue since I hardly eat meat. I do eat a lot of tofu though not sure if that's good or bad. And my muscles are swollen,…

What kind of foods would help mood/sleep? So far nobody seems to know exactly what's wrong with me so they just keep throwing pills at me until something works. Antidepressants helped some, pills meant for sleeping did nothing, would take 2 of them then lie in bed for hours, end up falling asleep for a bit at 5 am.

I actually contacted the police. The keys to all the rooms are the same so even though it's my room and I locked it, technically the fact that he has a key means what's mine is now his and he's allowed entry whenever he pleases. So far I'm hoping the spring semester students will want the room, maybe someone who smokes…

The landlord loves him. He's one of those people who have this phony niceness so when you talk to them they seem like cool down to earth people until you see their real side. Somehow even though I was the first to move in to the apartment the landlord refers to him for everything and whenever I try to complain about…

It's a bit hard with the constant wall of criticism. I get the "[x] is bad [y] is good, stop eating eat less eat this don't eat that you're fat do I really need to take a picture of you to show you how horrid you look weight is all that matters and you need to lose some fast" thing about 10x a day at least. I'll try to…

There's this thing here in the frozen foods section. It's basically 400g of vegetables, comes in whatever flavor, and a little baggie of paste that's basically the seasoning. You're supposed to just put it all in a pot with water for 20 minutes and boom soup. I usually put some of the veggies in the blender then add them…

He is lazy and cheap and will generally eat anything I put in the fridge. If it's healthy food he takes it all and makes it into some kind of nasty slop(which I later have to clean) to impress his gf. Then he denies taking my food even if I obviously know he did. I've tried locking things in my room but he just breaks in…

Maybe it has to do with not being exposed to healthy/clean foods that are good. Up until now all anyone has ever had to offer me is tasteless salads and chicken breast/fish or something along those lines, then get the whole "are you crazy? these things are the tastiest things ever, this just proves more that there's…

Multiple anti depressants/anti anxiety, plus sleeping pills for insomnia. I know one of them causes increased appetite but I'm not sure the 1mg a day I take of that specific pill is causing much of a problem. Also, in early 2012 I was pressured into doing that HCG diet, the one where you spray something in your mouth a few…

I'm going to try this, though I'll have to make more of them since the cucumbers here are small. No super sized veggies or buying anything in bulk where I live. I really do need to get around this thing where my brain seems to reject all healthy low calorie food. I do eat stuff like lentils/beans etc a lot during the times…

Edited to try and sound less like a pathetic sob story. *until age 10 eat whatever, not skinny but not fat either. Then I move to a new place and all of a sudden my mom is telling me what a fatass I am and constantly hiding food/taking it away from me. Add that to constant bullying from other people in area which probably…